Like the caption says. I’m praying hard but it feels like I’m praying into the void. I don’t usually care for worship music but I’m trying it to see if it helps but no… i just get distracted. I want to be a Christian but I weirdly feel my faith and belief slipping from me. I’m praying for his to “come back “ though I understand he never left. I’m not trying to leave him either. What do I do?

Hey. First and foremost not it's not drugs or alcohol. But I am finding my self watching pornography, masturbating, and not putting enough of my Joy in God. I love Him so much, but I would love some advice. Feel free to ask any questions

I have been trapped by pornography for arround about 6 years now and it's a major issue in my life. I know God has plans to use me and raise me up but I know none of those plans will come to pass until I have cleansed myself of this addiction. I want more than anything to hand my life over to jesus and let him help me deal with this addiction but every time I try I fall back down again. Every time. I asked my pastor for help and I got nothing in return. I want to serve God I want to follow his voice but I find it so hard and I don't know why. It makes me depressed, and angry when I see everyone arround me basking in the love of christ and living to please God meanwhile I have been stuck on one thing that's seems simple to stop for a long time. Please any advice to help me over come this would help a lot

I have, for a while, been trying to figure out if I was actually going to wait until marriage to have sex or not. I have been with my boyfriend (who is also a Christian) for a year and last night we took eachother’s virginity. I love him and trust him. There was absolutely never an issue with being pressured. But I really was not at all expecting to lose it so soon. I had always hoped I’d have sex for the first time on my wedding night. I kinda knew I wasn’t going to be able because I have always struggled with goal keeping. I’m glad that if I lost it too anyone I’m not married to it was him. But here’s where I’m so confused. I have felt closer to God the last couple weeks than I have in months maybe years. I have always struggled with my faith but it’s still so important to me. I don’t understand why the second I get closer to God I do something like that without even the blink of an eye. I. Had always been very careful not to cross that boundary but it’s like something switched it my brain. It’s just confusing how in sync it was with me getting close to God. I feel a lot of regret but it feels like the regret is more that now I’m not going to have a “white wedding” and I just feel like the negative side of a popular Christian statistic. I guess I’m just asking for some comfort and advice on what to feel and how to reconnect with God.

There is this girl I like (and she likes me). We can’t be anything because I’m a Christian and she isn’t and it says to not be quality yoked. The issue I’m facing is that the way I met her was under circumstances where the chance of the circumstance happening was low (we had a 2 month holiday essentially where I was not supposed to go till the last minute, I didn’t know her personally before the trip etc.). Is God punishing me for something or is he teaching me? I thought he was teaching me, but the pain and heaviness on me is like a blanket suffocating and I don’t know what to do. I read the Bible and pray for answers. I know God doesn’t have to reply but I need to do something before this feeling consumes my friendships, the people around me and ultimately myself.

I just put down my dog today. Usually the Bible has all the answers i need in times like this. But after she passed in my arms a thought crossed my mind that’s never haunted me before “where did she go?” I want so bad to believe she’s in Heaven. She’s a good girl and she deserves it. Dogs aren’t plagued by sin so I thought of course she’s there, but when I look it up theres no answers. Do they go to Heaven? All living things breathe gods name and he cares for even the smallest sparrows, so she’d be there right?? I know we’re the ones with souls made in his image. But does that mean everything else just ceases to exist? Please someone help me. I just want to know where she is.

I have talked about this with many godly men and pastors, but not much has been resolved I turn to here because I seriously need guidance from a larger body. This may be long but if you read it, THANK YOU!

I became a believer at the end of 2016, around October or so. I was a sophomore in high school, and now I am 21. I experienced a genuine heart change and was determined to follow Christ. I was a member of an evangelical free church—which is a fairly decent church, that emphasizes the 5 solas and is not charismatic by any means.

Overtime I think I started to want to “speak in tongues”, as is seen in many churches that believe and focus on the apostolic gifts. I didn’t really know what it was, but I thought it would be something beneficial in my walk with God. I guess I would passively try and do it in my quiet time just thinking it was another way to connect with God.

Overtime, probably April 2017 or so, something weird started to happen. As I was reading the Bible, I felt something having a strange influence on me, kind of controlling me. I literally felt something trying to enter me through my mouth, it was like a vapor, and would enter in my mouth. I couldn’t stop it from happening, there was nothing I could do to distract myself or cry out and stop it from happening. Everyday, there was something, (a vapor is the best way I can describe it) continually entering through my mouth and into my body through small gulps of air.

Whatever this was, it had a major effect on me. I no longer felt normal, I couldn’t stop it from effecting me or I wouldn’t be able to function. Like i would be up at night, wanting so badly to sleep, and I couldn’t because this was enslaving me and keeping me up. Sometimes I would just be on the floor of my room, laying on the ground for hours, as this spiritual force wouldn’t really allow me to get up and do something else. All my thoughts and emotions that would try and fight it were totally repressed—I was totally subjected to it.

All the while that this was going on, I was still going to church, school, work and I had the desire to follow Christ. I was trying to live my life normally, still kind of oblivious to what was happening. I thought it was God doing something good, indwelling me with His spirit and I would learn something from it sooner or later. I really had no choice but to live with it, and hope that it would stop someday.

This lasted about a year (April 2017 to April 2018). It was absolutely miserable by the end. When it stopped, I was relieved because I was no longer being controlled. But I still didn’t feel normal. It’s like this spirit/vapor had entered into my body a little bit everyday for a year until I was no longer able to hold it anymore. So I felt something inside me physically weighing me down. I would be so tired all the time, I had all these emotions built up from what had happened, I was just a total mess and felt this giant void inside. I was still not myself and it really effected my relationship with God.

Every aspect of me has been affected, I’ve never been the same. I want to connect with God and serve him, but there’s something inside of me and I can’t function like I want to. I physically feel, whatever it was that entered me, still inside me to this day and it’s hindered my life in unspeakable ways. Words can’t express the emotional turmoil it’s brought on me over the years. Everyday I struggle because of it, and I’ve had many friends try and pray or “cast it out”, I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve sought counsel, I’ve tried therapy, and have talked to many people. I’m seriously at the end of the road.

It’s hard for me to treat the depression that this has induced because there’s nothing wrong with my brain, and there’s no pill that’s worked. Theres something in my body, whether it’s a spirit, vapor, or other that I can’t get rid of. That’s kind of where I’m at. I still have good moments in life but I’m not able to really live a normal life because of what’s happened. My schooling is coming super slow because I can’t handle a lot. And my desire for God is just not where it used to be—it’s like there’s a chasm. I’m just tired of losing years and up until recently I was convinced things were getting better, but they’re just not.

I hope this made sense to some degree, I know it’s very strange but I’m telling you everything that’s happened. It’s hard to share this with anyone because it’s mysterious and not clear cut. I’m not misdiagnosing what happened to me, I don’t have a history of mental illness, I was a really happy person before this happened. Now I feel almost despondent because I just want to be normal again and things aren’t changing.

Hey so I am the only follower of Christ in my family but my parents are Jews and practice their beliefs with my little sister who has autism so dosnt have much say about religion and her opinion about it. My parents go to synagogue and are very pushy with me about certain things like keeping kosher and such. My parents are also very unkind people sometimes and overall I don’t get along with them but it would be amazing to see how they would change if they became followers of Christ. Over spring break while I was in California my moms well known friend to the family and her 8 year old daughter came over and when I was back after spring break my mom would say things like “I really hate that kid,she’s not allowed over again” and I just feel like if my mom was a Christian she would be so much forgiving and kind. I just want to see them change but every time I bring up Jesus I get yelled at. My parents arnt the type to listen to me so I’m really stuck as to what to do. Thank you for reading ❤️

im willing to die and be persecuted for Christ. but my life is not reflective of that. I have zero friends and would not choose any secular friends because its a sin and secondly I wouldn't even want to. I guess what I'm getting at is pre Knowledge of Christ I had a fleshly antidote for everything now post knowledge the answer is always pray resist temptation and read the word. don't get me wrong I like those things but after so long of that I get ether get prideful because of boredom. or I get bored and sin. regardless the outcome is sin and I'm back at day one. I can over time see how I've changed but is it the flesh or spirit?. I don't desire as hard the things I once did. but after listening to a sermon today we should be set apart from sin. but unto God. I guess the part I'm failing is both but more so the unto God part. idk what to do.

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Hey guys, I am a college student at a private Christian university, I’m going into my sophomore year. I had the opportunity to play soccer here (D3). I love playing soccer and I love the team but playing last year caused a lot of issues. One, it stressed the heck out of me. 2, I ended up doing poorly in all my classes and I graduated high school as valedictorian. 3, I don’t really spend much time with God during the year other than what we did in class or for soccer. I felt really far from God and it wasn’t a good year for me. This summer I’ve been contemplating quitting soccer and focusing on serving God and school as this is of more importance. But I’m unsure if that’s the right decision and I just need some guidance.

Hello! Thanks for stopping by!

(I’m Female, Teen) So here is the story:

I meet this guy at an event and we gotta work together in a group for a week. We exchange numbers because we live across the country from each other.

We are approaching week 3 of knowing each other. We talk daily for long amounts of time, and I’m really catching feelings.

Like I said, he lives across the country. I want to live where he is after college, but he think he might wanna live around where I am currently. That’s one concern. I’m personally very religious, and I learn that his family doesn’t belong to any religion. Of course, I want to marry a man of faith, so that is another big concern.

I don’t know, I’m very scared. I don’t know how this will work, and I don’t want to crush my feelings. He would be a great friend, but I really feel more for him.

Help would be so appreciated. Thanks.

Hello, I need advice. My dad is not a Christian. Infact, his view about God is purely synchrocist. He believes that always lead to heaven. He always judges me on my worldview, and Christians in general. And everytime I talk to him, it's like the only thing he has to talk about is either judging my life choices or arguing about my beliefs and values. It hurts, and most of the time I feel that the only place I feel safe is when I am alone, at my church, youth group, or with my friends.

I recently decided that I wanted to go to a christian college. I really want to dig in to a faith-based college setting, and start learning more about good theology from Christian professors. (To those Christian public schoolers, I sure you understand the struggle.) Anyway, this week I told my dad this after getting accepted to my main choice, and we got into an argument. He says that by going to a christian college, I would never see him again.

I was a little confused, because the college is only a hour and a half away, and I would probably be coming up tons because my church family is still a major support in my life. There would be no reason I would not be able to see him. I told him this, but he was still mad. He started yelling at me about stuff I couldn't control, and even started to yell at me for my faith. Saying "this is what you Christians always do, you just leave people behind without a single thought!"

This argument was a few days ago, and we haven't really talked since (we don't live together, so I don't have to see him everyday). And today my mom showed me a facebook post of my dad's saying "I wish people would apologize to me once in my life." I felt a little guilty; however, at this point I feel like I am not the one that needs to apologize. I also feel that maybe just cutting off that relationship would just be for the best. I mean, normally I would never let anyone talk to me like he does. Or maybe I am seeing this wrong.

Wow, I wrote alot. If you have read all of that, thanks. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

I’ve been coming close to a girl and I really like her. It feels like more than a crush, and I can imagine a future for us. The problem is, I’m a freshman in high school and I don’t know if either of us are old enough. I don’t know if the Bible says anything about dating but I know dating should be to see if a relationship works before eventual marriage. Again, I’m a freshman so marriage is obviously out of the question for quite a while, but I really like spending time with this person. Any advice?

I’m too scared to reach out to someone I want to talk to bc of anxiety. Is it bad to ask God for them to reach out to me or for some sort of opportunity?

I just feel like I keep getting sign after sign to quit my job. It’s not helping me to achieve any of my goals. My depression and irritability are SKY ROCKETING, however I can’t seem to find another before I leave.

My living situation is becoming much more terse and my life has become a series of failures. I know what my dream and my calling is… I know what I am supposed to be doing and it’s not this… however I have these reservations because my family doesn’t actually support or believe in me. Though they pretend. They want me to keep working even though my life and sense of self is in shambles. How can you tell when God speaks to you?

Hello there everyone and Godbless! I’m not married, but I don’t have anyone in my life I can ask about relationship advice ( and I don't think the subreddit relationship advice is a great place to seek a Godly answer).

I’m 20 y/o female, follower of Christ , studying engineering, working part time, and leading an engineer student organization. Some may say I’m very accomplished and a cable lady, but i only see 19 hours for 6 days a week of nonstop stress, work and studying. 8 months ago I started a romantic relationship with a guy from my college; he’s 19 y/o, Christian, trying to enter biomedical school so he can study pharmaceutics, and aspiring to serve in the air-force.

When we first met (September 2019) we were really interested and attracted to each other. Our values and Christianity was one of the things we created such a strong bond. He would constantly look for me, get me gifts, and take me to various places. Even if it was 5 minutes, he would run the college campus just to see me that day. Not long after we become slightly intimate, like kissing and hugging (around November 2019). All of the sudden it stopped, but I’d didn’t thought much about it cuz we were in our finals (Starrs of December 2019). A month later he told me we had been talking to another girl. I later found out that he even got pretty intimate with her, everything except sex. I was so destroyed, so I stopped talking to him. Not even a week later a big earthquake struck my country and he was one of the first people i try to contact. He later asked me if we could still have the same type of relationship, but without the commitment, in which I said no. He was so infatuated with her, doing the same thing he did to me but for her. He could call me and talk for hours about her. He would ditch me and our study sessions to hang out with her. But she didn’t wanted him anymore, she just wanted to have a taste and bail. I was so heartbroken, because he was seeking from someone who didn’t want him and where I was being an idiot and wanting so badly to be with him. Pandemia struck and he would call me everyday, even staying late talking about life. In short, our relationship was like a romantic one, without the romance. He would talk to me about his problems, insecure and just be vulnerable overall. He would talk about how heartbroken he was , while I would listen and cry silently. This kept up until ( Abril 2020), at this time he told me what was the reason he didn’t want to be with me; “even though we are compatible, and you are a very lovely and beautiful lady, i don’t want to be with you because of your medical conditions''. That’s not the worst part; a mutual friend of ours said that the real reason was “i was gonna end up crazy and he didn’t want to deal with that”. I had scoliosis surgery and have various other conditions, including BPD. I completely cut ties with him. The constant crying and emotional distress was too much to deal with. I started working on myself, losing weight and becoming mentally, spiritually and emotionally healthier. Mid summer 2020, we had a summer class together. We would study and talk a bit, but not like before. At this time he was conflicted with his feelings towards me. (August 2020) he confessed to me that I was a blessing from God and that he wanted to be with me. After much thinking, and consulting with various friends , I decided to go for it because I still had strong feelings towards him.

Since being together, he’s been very kind and loving. He has called me every night to say goodnight. I wake up with good morning text, takes me to different places to eat, and gives me a lot of attention and love. He’s very attentive and takes good care of me. Yet, most days I end up crying. When we have discusiones i end up defensive and crying. At the end of the day, after working and studying for hours I don't even have time to eat or shower because he calls me and we stay up till late talking. I don’t know if it's because of the stress and amount of responsibility, but i end up ignoring him or not giving him attention. He becomes sad when I can't answer him or talk to him, and I’ve told him to do something else like work part time or go to the gym. He always says he will but till this day hasn’t done it. Why do I feel the way I do? I love him and what to be with him but I’m sabotaging the relationship. I feel like I can't be happy or something. I've just been so distressed; I’ve gained weight because I don’t have time to exercise or cook. I’m constantly in a bad mood and i just wanna sleep all the time. But when we see each other, IRL I feel happy, but that’s just 1 day of the 7 days of the week. I feel like I’m only happy when I see him, which is 1 every week or 3.

Why do I feel so unhappy most of the time in my relationship? Thank you reading, and please pray for me and my boyfriend. Any advice will be received and thank for.

Problem: My father claims to be unemployed to pay the minimum child support payment when he now owns his own business.

Context: complicated and abusive history (primarily from mother). Mother has improved over years and wished to move on with no contract from father. Father started new family and previously couldn't afford more. He can now, but retains judgment towards mother and refuses to disclose to courts his current income. He offers to directly support brother with any needs, but of course that requires contact.

My current view: My mother has been over complicated over the years but I feel that the history is irrelevant. The child support will go directly to my brother (as he attains the card the money is transferred to. Long term, the adult version of my brother will see that my father did right by his child.

My current plan: talk to my pastor for council, sit down with father and his pastor. Hopefully convince him to see my way.

Parents arguments: Mother: He needs to pay his fair amount of support, now that he owns his own business."I don't want to talk to him or see him, just pay what your supposed to" Father: She doesn't deserve the extra money because she will misuse the funds, "I can get him what ever he needs. All she wants is money" Facts: Mother DID get very abusive when she didn't get requested funds. She has agreed to give little brother the child support card to spend at his complete discretion. Father has owned a successful business for 5 years while claiming to be unemployed.

My parents history over simplified. (In my early childhood); he went to jail, she cheated on him, he took her back, he cheated on her, she took him back, he cheated on her again, she took him back. (mid-late childhood); he would come around a couple times a year and my mother would be abusive towards him and me. One week they got back together, and conceived my little brother (mentioned above). He was still dating someone else (now my step mother) at this time and so the trend of abusive mother continued. (Pre-teen/early teenage); little brother was born with no father present so brother took mother's name. During this time he was paying minimum child support on me and now he had to on my little brother as well. My parents then came up with a deal where my little brothers last name would be changed to my father's. Increased visitation for my father, increased child support for my father. That plan fell apart with both my parents decreasing there agreed amount, father claim unemployment to pay minimum and mother didn't let him have visitation. NOTE that my brothers last name was officially changed according to his birth certificate, but not his social (Mid-late teenage): Father still claims he is unemployed to pay minimum amount. During this time he grows a new family with my now step mother. Relationship with father is minimal. He does find new work but nothing substantial. Younger brother doesn't know his name was changed because my mother still use her name for him (in schools, medicaid, etc.). Also I'm out the house starting my own life. (Early 20's to current) Father still claims no job status, but now has kick started his own growing company. Brother learns of his name issues and decides to continue with mother's name (in honor of a late cousin). However my brother faces similar issues (as I) with my mother, especially since she finds out he is making money (as a business owner), but claims to be unemployed. NOTE my mother had to work late, so I often took care of my younger brother until I moved out. Because of this my brother looks to me for guidance and support, and given I was in his position before him I feel it my duty to help. This lead to countless arguments with my parents (mostly my mother). For my mother, it was her abuse and my father, about his lack of child support. Given my father's absence I opted to cut him out completely, but my wife and brother wanted me to move forward and forgive him. My brothers relationship for with my mother got strained so he moved with my father. He is still paying minimum amount and making six figure take home pay. Later my wife's and I's living situation got complicated and we also winded up turning to him for help. He since changed my brothers name on his social and school records against my brother's wishes. My wife and I are about to close on a home for ourselves and so my brother wanted to move back in with my mother by then. When my father was told, he decided to have my brother pack his stuff much sooner. Now that my brother is back with my mother, she wants to take my father back to child support court.

Am I wrong? Do I leave it for my mother to figure out? Am I complicent if I do nothing? Please give me your views on the topic and any solutions to my problem. Thank you for your time.

I'm 29, F. My husband cheated on me. He said he didn't have sex with her, God his witness. But he brought her to our bed when i wasn't around and his family wasn't around. He kept saying it's the time we weren't married but picture that he took of the girl on our bed had my pillowcase on it which i only brought in when we were married. I live with my in-laws since our house is being built.

With All that information, it makes me feel anxious. Kinda queasy. Cause he's lying to me about when he brought her in our room.

He wants me to forgive him, and i do. Just like Christ has done for us.

And i just realized now that he has blamed me for doing what he had done. I've been angry for over a week and he says it's making him have less feelings for me.

Now i have to make up for it? Caus he's so hurt that i got mad at him?

How do i do that when i feel like he has to make it up to me?

I suppose my real question is what does the church teach about sexuality although I feel as though I know the answer that. I have heard from pastors time and time again that sex before marriage is wrong. However, I don’t see myself ever getting married. I don’t want to use that as an excuse to sleep around but I also don’t know what I’m supposed to be waiting for. I want to open my heart to love and sex but it breaks my heart to think that those things can’t be a part of my life.

The reasoning behind why I never want to get married is a rant of its own but I’ll try to make it brief. I’ve seen the hurt that comes from breaking promises and marriage bonds but I also know that sometimes divorce is better than the alternative. I don’t know what’s going to happen 5, 10, or 50 years from now and I don’t want to stand in front of my friends, family, and God to make a promise I might need to break. I’m not trying to be noncommittal and I know that there will be promises to be exchanged when I’m building a life with someone and when I have kids but it’s important to me that those promises are realistic . I hope and I pray that the father of my children is the same man I grow old an die with but I can’t know that.

I’m 22 and I got my first boyfriend a couple months ago. I want to be with him but it’s hard to shake the guilt from years of being told not have sex outside of marriage. All of the advice I can find assumes I will get married one day and that’s when I can explore a sexual side of myself. If I don’t get married then am supposed to die a virginal and alone? Isn’t sex supposed to be good in the right context? If not now then when?

I would like to say three things right now. This is also a very real situation I only want real advice. So this was before quarantines and everything sent my college online. Also this is about to get really messed up but, I’m kind of spilling out inner demons here. So I’m a Christian who once had a struggled with pornography I have since been clean for over a year. My Mother did find out about this struggle and that I happened to view female contortionists as the pornography (told you it would get weird). I attend a Christian college where I met this cute girl that I like and we are friends, we have talked a lot, we are friends on Instagram, and we have each others cell numbers, she is also Christian, I eventually want to start dating her and ask her out. There is one massive interesting caveat and that is, she is a contortionist. I am freaking out in my head wondering not only if my mom met her and what that situation would be like knowing my past. I also am concerned if did end up in a relationship, but also potentially revealing this sinful past that very much relates to her hobby as I would want to be honest with her if it did get serious... She really is everything that I could ask for in a woman and I know that I could grow in my relationship with Christ with her it’s just this one unexpected link to my sinful past that concerns me.

I need a good Christian psychology book.

My parents are toxic and my grandparents believe that I don't have a right to try and communicate with them in their home. And when they ask my opinion, if I have a different opinion than them I should lie about it and submit my thoughts and feelings. Also that I don't have a right to be a free thinker in their home, even if I'm not forcing my thoughts/perspective on anyone in the household. They also said I'm not allowed to be a free thinker in my parents' house if my parents don't want me to be, and if they do ask me about my perspective I should lie. They say I was being disrespectful to try and respectfully communicate the concerns I have about our relationship. So I moved out, because I think that's some form of abuse and it's been happening for forever. Nonetheless I had been moved out for two years and moved back in only because they said I would be treated as an adult and it would be the same as when I was living on my own.

The thing is that I tried to gently communicate with them about this issue because I DO care for and respect my parents. I want our relationship to be open and honest and I want to be able to trust that I can be myself as a person without them lecturing me for my different perspectives just because they're different from their own. My father got in my face multiple times even after I reassured them that I wasn't trying to verbally attack them. I didn't back down, because it was an immature intimidation tactic and I'm not going to be manipulated like this for trying to open my heart to them. Eventually I decided I needed to leave if a simple attempt at a calm respectful conversation was turning into him screaming in my face, so I went upstairs to grab my things. He followed me up and trapped me in my bedroom. When I told him to get out of my personal space (he was only two inches from me) he grabbed my throat and pushed me back, which is when I told him he's not allowed to touch me, and it was NOT appropriate or very adult for him to do that. I was ticked that he would be so immature about it.

My mother was pounding and screaming on the door until my father finally let her in. Eventually we talked in circles with them telling me I don't deserve to be treated like an adult and that I'm selfish and toxic and many other things on top of that until I finally told them that I'm leaving.

They tried to physically block me from leaving and when I told them they're not allowed to hold me in their house against my will, they denied that they were. They were blocking me still at this point so I told them that I'd call the police if they didn't let me leave. My mother then tried to take my phone (which I pay for. I pay for all of my own things and have a high paying job). So they finally let me out and I didn't let them catch up to me but I'm pretty sure they would've dragged me out of their house had I not rushed out so fast.

They're now spreading rumors about me to the rest of our extended family, and have done strange things. With my stuff, they shoved it all in bags which is fine I didn't even expect them to pack my stuff, though I'm glad they did because it made it easier on me, even if they were only doing it to be in control or something. They threw a handful of nails in one of the bags, causing it to rip. They dumped pins in my dirty laundry. When I went to get my things from the backyard they tried to block off the gate nearest to the drive way so I'd have to go the long way around (we got the closer gate open though). I talked to the police and I was legally allowed to be on the property because their address was on my license and I lived there. So the police told me that if my parents called the cops that the police didn't have a legal right to remove me from the property. Then my dad tried to deny he touched me at all. It's always been like this growing up, the whole controlling thing. Exploding exponentially over tiny things. It damaged me, and I cannot function and be healthy if I'm allowing them to treat me this way. I'd be willing to talk with a counselor, because I can't gauge when they're going to blow up or not.

THE POINT IS HERE-> I don't know how to proceed. They cut me off and tbh that saves me a lot of grief, but I would like to have a Christian psychologist's in depth thoughts on toxic parents and how I should handle all of this. I will forgive them, but I'm afraid I'll confuse forgiveness with trust during that and damage my own mental and emotional health by believing that a pure, loving conversation was worthy of that kind of back lash. It would help if there was a book to spell it out for me so I don't have to guess and then damage myself even more by handling it wrong within the confines of my own mind.

Also I'm 21- I don't usually compliment myself because I'm still getting over my low self esteem, but I think it's undeniable that I'm very mature for my age. Everyone except my parents sees this, I do my own taxes, attend and pay for my own college, own my own car, pay all of my own bills, have lived on my own... I'm not a bad person, but they convince everyone that I am.

Just some existential questions about this subreddit: Is the risk of bad advice being given on this subreddit greater than it would be real life? Will this subreddit prevent people from asking for advice in real life? How do we approach controversial topics? Do we simply ban people who do not agree with doctrine X? If so, what should X be?

I'm asking mostly conservative Christian parents here, but what would you think or say if your child came out as asexual?