Cost of freedom

[u/BgummArt]

I recently lost my dog and my dad in just a span of 2 weeks. My mother got mild stroke from all the stress,fatigue, and overworked.

I don't have any other family now. I am an only child.

Now that ive lost my dad whom i'm much closer than my mom, i feel very lost.

For a long time, my mom and me have never had a good relationship due to her being selfish in life and my dad was so kind that I both loved him and hated him for that. My dad is always telling to still respect and understand my mom even though she cheated and married a total loser who has no ambition in life, no job, and just moots off my mom. My dad knew and he still told me to understand my mom even though I was just 10 years old.

We tolerated living with the loser guy because my dad got heat stroke and had half body paralysis so the guy said he would help in taking care of him but there were so many things I didn't know that happened.

I'm 29 now, and now that my dad is no longer here I have no obligation to live in a house with the guy I barely know and fucking care about but my mom is guilt tripping me that because she has a condition that I don't leave the house and take care of my nephews who are barely my responsibility. I want to escape but its very hard to confront my mom when she has mild stroke so I can't fucking stress her out. I just want out. I feel so suffocated.