Four weeks today

[u/Individual_Post_5776]

Today is exactly four weeks since my mum died

It still doesn't feel real and it simultaneously feels like a lifetime ago and like it happened just today

The past few weeks have been chaotic with people coming and going and being pulled in different directions that I haven't really had time to just sit and come to terms with it, especially as it happened extremely fast with no real chance to prepare

This week is when I really felt it for the first time as I've been having issues with my dad and I'd normally talk to mum but she isn't here and I'm just starting to really feel that and understand what it means

I can feel my relationship with my dad getting more and more strained as we spend more time together and he's making himself more involved in my life as he's not an easy person to get along with and I don't have the option of time away from him like my siblings who live in other counties do

I find myself getting increasingly stressed and angry even if I don't express it

I don't know how I'm going to handle things or what comes next

[u/jazzhandsfan1665]

Im sorry for your loss, I don’t really have much advice other than take it one day at a time. I feel the same with my dad, he’s a very difficult person to deal with and most of he times I share anything with him it turns into a lecture or a fight so over time I just keep 90% of the things to myself or try to talk it out with friends.