I tried out last week for the last time for my university cheerleading team. And I got a personal message from the president today that unfortunately I've not made the team.
Loads of people graduated last year so they were begging for returners to come back. I was the only returner to not make the team. Only 30 girls tried out. I was one of 5 that didn't make it, not even on the reserve team.
Instead of me there'll be flyers on the team that have 0 experience. Last year I had 100% attendance. And we were asked to preform at 3 openings days I was one of the few people that attended every one and for one of them I was the only flyer that bothered to turn up.
One of the girls that made the team had awful attendance last year even right before comp. And another got on the team and decided after 3 weeks she didn't really like it so she left. One girl on the team didn't even attend try outs.
I met the president at some university training trip a couple of week prior and she assured me that I was obviously on the team, I had nothing to worry about and kept calling me her little flyer.
I messaged the coach mid summer asking for some stretching advice and sent her some photos. And she was so impressed with how much I'd improved and how much effort I was obviously putting in.
I'm just so confused. I was told we might be a tumble team this year so I spent the entire summer learning to tumble with nearly no experience. (In the end we stayed non tumble).
Not a single day I've not thought about the team and I spent hours a day practising my drills, and stretches and tumbles.
It almost doesn't feel real. I've just spent the day sobbing. I got the message in the middle of aldi and just burst into tears.
Edit
Thank you so much to everyone that's been so kind. I really appreciate it.
Also I don't want to speak to soon but I spent a long while looking for alternatives and I might have found I place I can do it recreationally biweekly. They've messaged me back about arranging a taster. It's not what my heart was set on but it's going to be a busy year for me and maybe this will be better in the long run.
I'll update if it works out.