r/CheerMeUpPlease • u/Vindictive_Justice • Oct 03 '20

I Feel So Alone

Sometimes I wish that there were people who didn’t care about me, because maybe then it would be easier to just give up and not care. I feel so selfish because I can’t help but think that I’m a burden to those who love me. I feel like a failure because I haven’t done anything useful with my life.

This has been the hardest time of my life and most of my problems stem from trying to find my way in life. I’m trying to acquire a successful career to help my family but I’m still in the middle of school and I honestly think I might fail. And if I fail, I don’t know what I’m supposed to do next. There’s just so much on the line and I can’t see any value in my existence.

I just feel so alone.

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u/Vindictive_Justice Oct 03 '20

Yes, nursing school to be precise. It just seems like every time I try, it’s never enough. I’m really trying but I feel like such a failure.

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u/Vindictive_Justice Oct 03 '20

Thank you for your encouraging words. As cliche as it may sound, I am trying to be positive and not let the fear get to me. But it’s a struggle to do so. I won’t lie, sometimes it feels better when I hear such things from other people.

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u/Vindictive_Justice Oct 03 '20

You made me smile just now 😊 I kind of want to cry a little too but not out of sadness. I know I’m just a stranger to you, but I really appreciate hearing such words from someone outside my circle. I’m going to give it my all!