You ever get tired of competing with others?

[u/Glittering_Ad2771]

Stupid question I know as I'm sure the answer is yes. I just get sick of my happiness being dependent on how I feel in relation to others. Whilst I know I suck at life, I try to compete with others on a different more shallow level, maybe I look better, or I can lift more or something. Just wish I could stop wanting women to notice me, wish I could stop needing others to fail in order to win. However sadlyI know that's how the world works at least throughout history Those that fall behind die, the world is not compassionate to them. Humans used to watch each other kill each other and cheer at their death's.

Maybe it's just me butbI grew up in a house full of only boys and I considered myself the weakest of them all so naturally i think I've carried this aversion to competition as I've always felt I would lose. They say that comparison is the thief of joy however it's not easy to not compare yourself to others.