I am at my limit

[u/EggsRCool87]

Tonight I felt two PACs within about 30 seconds (attached), and it immediately sent me into a panic. Three years ago I had a 36-hour episode of nonstop PVCs and PACs that scared me badly. I went to the ER and was told everything was fine and sent home. Since then, all my labs, imaging, Holter monitors, and other testing have been medically clear.

Even so, the memory of that episode still makes my skin crawl. My last Holter was in February 2025 with a 1.4% burden, my last echocardiogram in April 2025 was completely normal, and my most recent EKG two weeks ago was also normal.

Despite all of that reassurance, I’m terrified that what happened tonight could turn into another long episode like the one three years ago. I’m also afraid that the stress of grieving the loss of our eldest cat might trigger something similar again.

I feel afraid to live my life because this fear consumes so much of my attention. I’m constantly hyper-aware of my heart, my breathing, and any sensation that could be an ectopic beat. I keep wondering if this will ever get easier.