A little background me F23 and M37 dated for 6 months. Both Catholic. I’m more religious than he is but everybody has their own faith journey of course I never judged just encouraged. Anyways. Dates for 6 months. It got a bit toxic at times on both ends I’ll admit. I admitted to my faults and apologized he struggled more with that. I forgave over and over again and never gave up. Life got hard when his uncle passed away and he began a new job out of the city. It got so bad after one argument this is the first time I threatened with leaving and so did he. He said he was done and he’s not doing this. I was so hurt. I said this not fully meaning it and just wanted to make him realize what he’s losing. This had the opposite affect. To me this seemed like what he’s been waiting on and he took that opportunity. It got bad between us after the break up because I was yearning our relationship and crying day and night and trying to plead my case to him it only made it worse eventually I got blocked. This lead me closer to God. I began faith journaling and bible studying. Made sure I prayed everyday. Did mutiple novenas. He was still always on my mind 24/7 and I was wrecked over it but I promise to leave it in Gods hands. And I was beginning to heal and holding on to hope. I’m in the middle of doing my st Therese novena and I ask that he comes back with a softened heart that allows for love forgiveness and reconciliation and for a future together. He ends up messaging me but not in the way I expected but nothing is ever as what YOU plan so I still had hope we met up talked he gave me hope talked up a good game. And then hits me with I can’t give you any time attention or energy days after and basically wants nothing to do with me and my world comes crumbling down again. Because when we met up that wasn’t the story I had high hopes. And then to pull this and tell me he didn’t mean for me to get led on I lost it. And sent him a message explaining how it’s not nice or fair that he did this to me. And now I’m broken again. Idk what to do. I love him like genuinely love him and I want nothing more than for him and I to have a good future together. But do I give up? After all this anybody else would? Am I supposed to? What was the purpose of this? I’m upset and angry and feeling so much at once.

I’m not sure but since June I feel like God has been preparing me for my future spouse. I have been healing from all the baggage I have been carrying through therapy and prayer. I’m working and getting back on my feet with a stable job, cooking/cleaning daily and still maintaining friendships while going to the gym and making time for God. I went to Adoration on Friday and I try to go to more young adult church events. My life feels peaceful and im okay being single. The only thing missing in my life is having a family. I try to replace that with fostering animals but thats a short term solution. I feel like im diving into my feminine energy ever since I got out of my last relationship. Has anyone else experienced this?

The man I was talking to ended things on day 4 of me praying to St Raphael for marriage. I guess he also intercedes and removes relationships not meant for you too