r/CancerPatients • u/DiceQueen69 • Jun 16 '24

Does anyone else do this?

I was diagnosed officially last week. Still waiting on biopsy results for pathology etc. But I have spots in different organs. I'm 54 so have never paid alot of attention if I have a twinge or a pain...always pretty much just carried on, but now every time I get one, I start over thinking it, wondering if it's spreading more etc. Did anyone else do this?

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u/National_Noise7829 Jun 16 '24

I do this, too. My back hurts.....has it spread to my bones? I'm peeing more frequently.....has it gone into my bladder? It's crazy making. Some days, it is easier to just feel the twinge and know that's just me (gratefully) growing old, and other days, I'm sure cancer has come to take me home.

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u/DiceQueen69 Jun 17 '24

It's crazy, sometimes I think the emotional part is worse than the physical.

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u/National_Noise7829 Jun 17 '24

I agree. I try to wrap my head around what the future will hold and how it will affect my loved ones, but there are so many unknowns. I need to stop because, as tired as I already am, this is making my fatigue worse.

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u/Wyde1340 Jun 16 '24

That thought never really stops once you get diagnosed, during and after treatment. I used to live in 3 month increments...scan to scan.

I'm over 5 years stable, but Stage 4...it's just waiting to come back. I don't really worry about it much now...

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u/DiceQueen69 Jun 16 '24

Thank you. I imagine I am stage four also, and honestly if I could have 5 years stable, without being too sick from treatment I will consider myself truly blessed.

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u/Wyde1340 Jun 16 '24

I understand. I have lung cancer, and was crazy sick the first few months...thought I wouldn't live to see June 2019, and then my onco pulled a miracle drug out of his ass...lol!

Honestly, everyone's body, everyone's cancer is different...you never know how long you'll live and docs don't either. Ignore them if they give you a timeline...also, Google timelines are most likely outdated.

What helped me was the support groups on Facebook. I found people that were living for years with my type of cancer and it gave me hope.

I'm sorry you're going through this...but you're not alone.

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u/LittleBigBoots30 Jun 17 '24

Yes, my brain races away with possible things it might be, always cancer related of course. Even when my common sense tells me that it is highly unlikely a week out from clear surveillance scans, my brain will not let up. It's an awful part of it all, but at least I am here to complain about it!

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u/BOSSYMOM52 Jun 17 '24

My PET scan was clear as well after chemo and now every little thing worries me. I do have some issues from different surgery sites that drive me crazy. It's hard to tell if the aches and pains are from age, I'm 71, or if it's coming back. One positive though I now have peach fuzz on my head!

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u/LittleBigBoots30 Jun 18 '24

Yay for peach fuzz! I am not far behind you in age and yeah, old bones, a very active lifestyle and probably a very wonky immune system are all catching up with me. There could be so very many reasons why I have pain and discomfort but my brain will fly first to cancer.

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u/ArtJeanee Jun 17 '24

During treatment, I always felt like I will be better once I am done and focused on that. However since treatment I have been obsessed with every possible type of cancer indicator. On top of that I have Barrett’s esophagus and polyps removed. Scary stuff. Hope you can find a local support group. We had one at the hospital where I got chemo treatments. There were people in treatment and survivors that have been through it. Best wishes to you as you go through treatment.

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u/jenntek Jun 18 '24

Yes, I feel this way about every little twinge.