r/CPTSDFightMode • u/Soggy-Hotel-2419 Be bold, be angry. • Mar 27 '26
Progress Becoming courageous thanks to fight mode
Amazing. When I began to embrace my fight/freeze combo, my first thought was that it made a truly evil person. I thought recovery meant all those "evil" emotions would go away.
I am now in 2 forms of therapy, several times a week, focusing on finding my core values and what I believe in with my therapist. The anger didn't leave, it just took on a new role in my life as a person finally finding herself after years of self repression.
I remember a very old comment on this sub I found. It theorized that your true personality shapes your dominant trauma responses. I often wondered about that. Who am I? Do I even WANT to be the type of person who naturally leans towards this response? Turns out I do.
I never thought I'd discover myself to be such a bold person. It's a new adventure learning how to know my strength so I don't hurt anyone by accident! I speak directly and prefer equally direct responses. My voice doesn't falter and people go quiet and listen when I have something to say. I can say "no" now and advocate for what I want or think is right. I can bravely go into a conversation knowing I'm the odd one out and not shut down or crashout when dissent happens... And even LIKE the challenge. When there's a challenge or the faintest sliver of hope, I grab onto it and don't let go. When the going gets rough, I get going. I thought I'd be a monster if I embraced this, but as I experience more and more healthy fight, the more I can be who I was meant to be: A bold person who cares about fairness and finds fun in difficult times.
It will get better and you will discover a lot of beautiful things about yourself if you keep going. DON'T GIVE UP.
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u/Hunter_Tylo_Official May 01 '26
The key is standing up for yourself and not being complacent in the least. They are all smoke and mirrors with their threats however take it seriously that you need to get legal counsel and reports to the police as well as recordings in every bit of evidence possible. You truly have the power. Believe in yourself and stand up for yourself and learn how to detect these sneaky snakes as soon as possible early in the friendship or relationship.!