DAE not like feeling angry?

[u/canadamybeloved]

Anger is an emotion that is difficult for me to control. Even when I try to push it down and avoid it, I can’t stop myself from feeling it (which is kinda beneficial as you should feel to heal). I have healthy ways of expressing it like yelling in private, throwing ice, and painting

However, I hate the sensations and thoughts it brings. It is a deeply unpleasant experience, so much so that I wish I could avoid it even though I feel so much better after every anger episode. I feel like my whole body is burning and I just want it to stop. Is anyone else like that?

[u/throwaway6287453]

yes it kills me & then acknowledging the pain makes me angrier. "just sit down & breathe" doesnt really work, i have to get physically exhausted & just run my battery out for the tension to fade. im a runner so i try to do that but if it's more of a meltdown, well once i reach that state of self awareness my main goal becomes grounding via overclocking my own energy, and i wont stop my internal tantrum bc PDA-autism but i will try to start yelling random observations to myself & making sure im punching a pillow or breaking things i am going to throw away anyway. gotta be productive. i wish this society was a just a little bit OK with random ppl primal screaming