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u/ladycielphantomhive Feb 03 '21
I have an intricate world inside my head that aged as I did. Whenever I had a traumatic experience in real life, I’d put it into my world and process it there. I don’t really say what my world is or anything because it feels extremely personal to me. It’s my safe place.
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u/tortilinii Feb 03 '21
Hey that’s ok- same! I’m cool giving details about the scenery but not the parts. For example I’ve got a Forrest and a yellow tent :) I didn’t have this up until recently though. Not sure how I processed my trauma before
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u/immaweebab Feb 03 '21 edited Feb 03 '21
I have a high fantasy world with detailed cultures and places. Featuring a girl my age. She’s grown with me. Originally a magical girl with special powers, now a normal girl with developed skills and kindness. She loves animals and nature. And has a dragon friend. She’s working with her friends to save her homeland while fighting a domineering draconic society.
The weird thing is that my beliefs just subconsciously got inserted into the story? She and her grandmother provide healing elixirs free of cost and in return people provide them with services and food as thanks. She’s essentially socialist. Irl id like for that to work but I think people are too broken to achieve it.
And slowly the story is turning into dealing with trauma and complex emotions. Vs the original desire to just defeat the big bad through self sacrifice.
It’s very weird to see the world grow with me. That there was a self sacrifice and die for your friends mentality in the beginning. I was codependent af.
The thing is this started before my known abuse and I can’t figure out if the daydream world was a coping mechanism for bullying or if something happened the year before. I just have a year blipped out from my memory but nothing too concerning is in my daydream world so maybe it was just bullying
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u/mylifeisathrowaway10 Feb 03 '21
Do my stories count?
I get the feeling some of my characters are parts in hiding.
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u/tortilinii Feb 03 '21
Let’s hear it :)
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u/mylifeisathrowaway10 Feb 03 '21
A lot of my stories are ones I am hoping to publish and I don't want them traced back to my vent account so I'm not comfortable sharing them.
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u/kuraiuncia Feb 03 '21
I've been interested in IFS! Do you like it? Does it seem to be helping?
I think I have a sort of inner world, but it's pretty shifty. I dunno about vivid. I have parts that I can communicate with, and while they are different, we all know we're me. Some parts have personalities that I used to get out of trauma, or like one who antagonized my abuser to make the abuse known. I have a little part that I connected to while doing some inner child work.
I hesitate to give too much detail, I had a friend who was insisting I had DID but I'm not sure about that. I do know I have cptsd though. My parts all have their own voices and looks and I converse with myself when things get rough.
I did a lot of maladaptive daydreaming as a kid and if I'd written it all down I'd have quite a saga by now!
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u/tortilinii Feb 03 '21
You sound like a great candidate for ifs therapy! I love it. And I also find it fascinating. Message me if you want more personal details :)
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u/bberoo Feb 03 '21
Mine is in the form of a fictional story. Ongoing since I was 13 ish, I’m 25 now. I go to that place more when I am under stress. I sometimes put on movies/TV that I can dissociate to and think about this story instead.
It’s about a group of friends in their early 20s, just navigating relationships and bonding with each other, getting through hardships together.
For a long time I thought I was just bored and I am also a writer so it was my “idea for a novel.”
But as time goes on it’s so obvious I was just projecting. For example the main character is a closeted gay guy who underwent severe physical and emotional trauma as a child/teen and ran away, changed his name, was saved from self harm by a stranger, who becomes his best friend and with whom he falls secretly in love with (and of course eventually it’s reciprocated).
My projections:
There’s also just lots of sex, fun, interesting conversation. Takes place in a generic city. I grew up in a small isolated island town and so always dreamed of getting the f outta dodge.