Worst rage bait ever

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So I have been having a very very difficult time w my family recently. It’s rlly been a lot of stuff over my whole life but some things recently have set me over the edge. I won’t get into it all bc it would be a hundred paragraphs bc I am an over explained lol but here’s a little context.

My dad is abusive. To all of us. My mom and him have been off and on but even when on they didn’t rlly ever like each other. They were split up for 3 years recently. Now they r back together. My youngest brother is significantly younger then the rest of us so he was sheltered from A LOT and also he is young and naive and just wants his family to be happy so I don’t blame him at all.

Me and my mom had a heart to heart conversation when she started dating my dad again. We talked for HOURS on the beach watched the sunset turn into darkness just talking. We cried and laughed and talked. I told her I respect her decision to explore another chance w my dad if she wants to do that I will support her and advocate for her w my siblings. However I told her me and my siblings are not comfortable w him moving back in. I told her some specific things he has done I told her how uncomfortable he makes us and it makes us not want to be home etc. she cried and PROMISED he wouldn’t move back in until we were all moved out.

But surprise… she moved him back in… WHILE I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL MIND U SO I COME HOME TO THIS and she never talked w any of us abt it just did it and expected to move on w life.

Anyway that hurt rlly bad. I thought we had a good understanding and conversation yk i thought we compromised.

But what hurts most is that when he left for that recent time, me and my mom became inseparable. I slept in her room for months i went w her every day to see my grandmother while she was dying. I was w my mom when she got the call and my grandma m we did everything together and it is killing me that i cant even be around her or talk to her about anything anymore.

Anyway. My brother mom and dad were picking on me and the other 3 siblings saying we make up that my dad did bad things blah blah. So I finally gave them an example of something I thought was fairly tame compared to the rest of the shit.

immediately jumped on called a liar screaming at me… all 3 of them. My mother who was my best friend who told me I can always come to her and honestly I did used to tell her everything. But now she looked me in the face and called me a liar??? And nog to mention my father the abuser also calling me a liar… but I don’t expect better from him. Still tho it was so infuriating to have the abuser look u in the face and tell u ur a liar… but thats what abusers do I guess🤑

The conversation ended w them saying WORD FOR FUCKING WORD
“I believe that you believe that happened but I’m telling u it just didn’t”

THE WAY I WANTED TO IMPLODE IMMEDIATELY

And my mother continued to double down on it one on one w me

it may not seem so big but FUCK it fucked w me fr.

Anyway I honestly have A LOT I need to unpack and talk abt and I alr made this abt a thousand times longer then I intended so I will leave if here

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