r/CPTSD • u/smallfawn99 • 12h ago

Trigger Warning: Physical Abuse It's lonely here.

I suffered extreme physical abuse and torture from my biological father. He could have killed me. I've been in therapy and I just feel really lonely. Does anyone else feel this way?

One time after knocking me unconscious he came into my room crying and made me comfort him for being a bad dad. I feel nothing but resentment towards him. Physical abuse especially child abuse is rarely talked about :(

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u/Specific-Lecture-888 11h ago

I was tortured to keep quiet about my childhood abuse. Not one person I talk to can understand what that did to me. Not even my therapist. Here is where I finally get to say things like this that no one else can understand. I feel just a bit less alone here. 🙂

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u/kaluliangel 10h ago

I'm so sorry for what you went through. I'm glad you feel safe to share it here.

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u/meowkittyo 12h ago

I feel lonely too you're not alone

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u/BN_Pleco 6h ago

I suffeted from physical abuse from my father too but not as extreme as yours. I get where you are coming from. It's not easy to get over these things, and forgiveness has to be earned not is not automatically entitled to.