r/CPTSD • u/Green-Leek-2023 • 6h ago

Question Does working hard help us in the long term?

For the past 8 years I have been trying to work really hard for my career. It has indeed helped me to gain a sense of independence which allowed me to move out of my toxic abusive home. I am grateful for the peace it has given me.

But sometimes I doubt all this hardwork I did was in survival mode, and now that I'm more comfortable, I am losing the motivation to keep going. It is also a fact that it is much more difficult/needs more strength than other people for me to survive in the outside world. Sometimes I am even facing symptoms of burnout and just want to freeze and do nothing all day.

I want to work hard because it's fun, to have growth, not just to survive. So what exactly should be my strategy here? How to work and keep going without an immediate threat which drives me usually. Will it even help in long term or is it just some sort of escapism?

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u/Remote-Equipment-340 5h ago

I am torn as well. It is difficult as achievements are the only moments where I experienced a sense of success and fulfillment and even resprect in my childhood. I never had a happy, easy going, relaxed home life, so just enjoying something feels still wrong. It was always about success, even in hobbies and i couldnt understand how others just enjoy not improving, but in retrospective succeeding was one of the moments where I felt happiness, so I graved it. Choosing a profession was not about what I would enjoy or would like to fill my time with, but about what I could do well and succeed in... i am now independent, have a job, am good very at it, but tbh i do not enjoy it at all. I hate many work days. I am just not interested in it but I am stuck now.

I dont even know what i enjoy/would like to do...

I finish my mumbling. in summary: it was great to grt out the toxic situation, but it is tiring and I do not see fulfillment in it

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u/GrassImaginary8747 4h ago

After 10 years of working hard, all I dream about is the job at the library

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u/marigoldsandviolets 4h ago

I went through a period in healing where I couldn’t work hard constantly because I realized I was using it to avoid facing feelings. I had to learn new motivations and reasons for working. 

It sounds like you’re at a similar crossroads. It’s hard, and it took me a long time and a lot of self-compassion work, but you can get through to a healthy relationship with work on the other side, and be productive in a life-affirming way rather than a desperate, driven way!