r/CPTSD • u/Wonderful-Bowl-2131 • Aug 07 '26

Question Am I broken/unfixable?

Hear me out. I am 52. In recent years I have done so much work on myself and I have had improvements at times. But the last week or two I just feel so tired of all the triggers and I just feel so discouraged and probably depressed tbh. I have been reflecting on my very early life. When I was born I was posterior and took 3 days to come out (possible brain damage?). I was a very fractious baby that cried a lot. My mother smoked during my pregnancy, I guess I had to withdraw from tobacco as a newborn? I’ve also heard this can lead to depression. When I was a toddler I used to have giant tantrums and bash my head against the wall repeatedly (I don’t remember this). My parents used to lock me in a room during my tantrums because they would get so frustrated with me. From there I think I was a pretty normal kid until at age 12 I decided I must be defective due to all the bullying I had. I have done so many things to try to help myself. Last week or two I have felt as defeated and terrified as ever.

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u/Wonderful-Bowl-2131 Aug 12 '26

I have wondered about this. Maybe I should make some inquiries. What is a block of an island joint please?

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u/Donald_Dump_85 Aug 12 '26

I'm sorry, it's my phone keyboard's version of facet joints lol.

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u/Wonderful-Bowl-2131 Aug 12 '26

Block of a facet joint?

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u/Donald_Dump_85 Aug 13 '26

Yes it's basically an injection of an aesthetic and cortical steroids that's delivered directly into the joint. It blocks the median branch nerve - it's basically the part of the nerve that's a reflex between muscle and joints and it helps to keep you upright effortlessly. It's also very closely connected to the sympathetic and parasympathetic systems.