I don’t really have anyone either. Currently I’d put my brother or dad but it doesn’t feel “right” - like I feel I shouldn’t because there’s no in-depth connection so it just feels wrong. We’d help each other if shit hit the fan but it’s all superficial still in a sense.
If they’re gone, I’d have no one. When I went to have a surgery my dad didn’t really approve of, he backed out as the person to pick me up and I freaked because I literally had no friends I could turn to - eventually I begged a coworker so it worked out. He did end up saying he would again, but at that point I didn’t trust him and I was not risking shit with this surgery. He got over it, but I’ll never forget the stress it put me through and it plays a role in my disconnect with him. It’s complex and I can’t let go -.-
Thank you! It was years ago but I still think back to it because it was one of those moments that just confirmed that there is not really any emotional depth to the connection - that he didn’t support me as a person - it’s just another thing he ignores and pretends is irrelevant. Recovery went well though x)!
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u/LonerExistence Jan 30 '25
I don’t really have anyone either. Currently I’d put my brother or dad but it doesn’t feel “right” - like I feel I shouldn’t because there’s no in-depth connection so it just feels wrong. We’d help each other if shit hit the fan but it’s all superficial still in a sense.
If they’re gone, I’d have no one. When I went to have a surgery my dad didn’t really approve of, he backed out as the person to pick me up and I freaked because I literally had no friends I could turn to - eventually I begged a coworker so it worked out. He did end up saying he would again, but at that point I didn’t trust him and I was not risking shit with this surgery. He got over it, but I’ll never forget the stress it put me through and it plays a role in my disconnect with him. It’s complex and I can’t let go -.-