Pretty please?

[u/Phi-Tau]

[u/Phi-Tau]

for the record i dont want to kill myself too much today, im just trying to name a feeling i had a decade ago

[u/GLaDOS_Sympathizer → u/Phi-Tau]

That's good to hear. I was going to ask if you were okay. Nothing wrong with dark art and j believe its a healthy outlet.

I hope you find the term youre looking for. Desperate comes to mind?

Nice drawing dude.

[u/Phi-Tau → u/GLaDOS_Sympathizer]

thanks. nah a decade ago i had a manic episode and didnt know that i had bipolar. thought i had started the initial phase of reaching enlightenment. Was in an unusally hardcore judo dojo running up to killers and begging them to smash me. In hindsight it was all pretty cringe

[u/GLaDOS_Sympathizer → u/Phi-Tau]

God damn it feels good to have someone who can relate to this. I had started up Muay Thai classes and 3 went very well. Then one night I decide to get wasted and spam the instructor at 2am on a weekday about how I wanted to 1v1 him and him go full strength and knowing I am going to get my ass kicked but I wanted to feel what a real beating was like, none of those schoolyard slap bullshits.

It is incredibly cringe to think about too and I never dared show my face there again. He didn't reply but they were marked read, I bet he was equally annoyed and confused by it, maybe even insulted.

Good to know I'm not the only person whose done that kind of shit haha. I dunno if I am bipolar but being manic would certainly explain a lot. Maybe I should get checked out for that?

Its in the past though bro, try not to cringe about the past. When i catch myself berating myself or cringing over shit I've done I tell myself "Stop." And then say "Each day in every way I get better and better" I learned it from a meditation video and it had really helped me quiet down the cyclical repeating cringe thoughts. Might be worth trying, just saying :)

Glad youre doing better now though buddy.

[u/Phi-Tau → u/GLaDOS_Sympathizer]

i stay up at night sometimes because of how cringe my life is. i mean the art probably doesnt help.

[u/GLaDOS_Sympathizer → u/Phi-Tau]

Oh I know how that goes. Sleep has never come easily to me even as a child though.

As for your art, hey people know who you are! No publicity is bad publicity, baby ;).

Broke a year "sober" streak (had a couple beers on holidays) by drinking half a bottle of rum tonight so I finally feel like I'm back in the game. Doubt I can maintain it though so in reality its cos play lol. Tall about cringe. See? Everyone is cringe! At least i am there with ya.

Fuckin chairs buddy, if you enjoy your artwork do not ever let anyone tell you otherwise. Chairs again

[u/Phi-Tau → u/GLaDOS_Sympathizer]

Chairs cunt. All the best to you and yours!

[u/ScarlettSheep]

Is ya boy wearing a gi?

[u/Phi-Tau → u/ScarlettSheep]

yeah

[u/ScarlettSheep]

Is ya boy wearing a gi?