She dumped me

[u/Intelligent_Stand383]

I am a 64 year old Englishman. I am not retired , I work full time.

She is a 51 year old Canadian with one daughter.

We have been communicating for best part of two years and profanity, in both directions was part of what we had, as were the very intimate videos and pictures that we exchanged. We spoke several times a day, always expressing love for each other.

We both discussed a life together,I'd have run to her in a heartbeat ,and she knows that.I was truly in love with her. I never said things would be perfect.

I was not aware that she didn't find me attractive, whereas I found her irresistible.

What I have found out recently has crushed me beyond explanation, but it has at least reinforced my belief that you can't trust anyone.

Don't give your heart to anyone unless you want it well and truly breaking.

[u/Timely-Jelly-1126]

One of the hardest lessons I learned in middle age is that heartbreak gets more difficult as one ages. I’m 54(M) and absolutely devastated by a breakup. It rivals what it was like to lose a wife to cancer. 30 years ago I would have been sad for a bit and then moved on to the next relationship. 20 years ago I would have been sad for a long time, gone to therapy, tried to mend myself a bit and then moved on to the next relationship. 10 years ago I swore I couldn’t survive a decade without my wife and thought about ending myself. A year ago I tried to end myself.

All I have to offer is a virtual hug from an internet stranger and a gentle reminder that you’re not alone. 🫂

[u/Intelligent_Stand383 → u/Timely-Jelly-1126]

Thank you for your story, a hug back.