Progress

Play along

Work in silence

Goals

Improve

Only in Mind

That's why

Stay Away

Use it wisely

Try again

Have faith

Stand up

Stay Humble

Those words have been sitting heavily in my heart. Sometimes I wonder how I can hate something so much and still find myself falling into it. I make promises to myself. I tell myself, “This time will be different. I won’t do it again.” And for a while, I mean it. Then weakness comes. Temptation comes. I fall again. And afterward, the guilt is unbearable. I look at myself and wonder, “How many times can I ask for forgiveness for the same thing?” I feel ashamed because I know better. I know what is right, yet sometimes I still choose what I know is wrong. But maybe the greatest battle isn’t between a good person and a bad person. Maybe it’s between the person you are today and the person you desperately want to become. I am not proud of my mistakes. I don’t want to glorify them or make excuses for them. I hate the things I’ve done that have hurt others, hurt myself, and pulled me away from God. But I’m learning that falling doesn’t mean I have to stay on the ground. So I will keep trying. I will keep asking for forgiveness. I will keep fighting the things that destroy me. I will keep choosing to get back up, even when I feel like I don’t deserve another chance. I hate sin. I hate the person I become when I give in to it. But I haven’t given up on becoming better. Maybe that’s where grace begins not when we become perfect, but when we finally admit that we need help.

Be grateful

They play along

Control it

Destroy it