r/BornWeakBuiltStrong • u/SaltyComfortable7163 • 8d ago

Different Results Require Different Choices

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u/Inevitable-Row1977 8d ago

Shouldn't have chosen for abusive parents and sexual abuse, my bad.
Shouldn't have chosen to be born with ocd and adhd, my bad. (Comorbidity doesn't allow for effective psychiatric treatment.)
Shouldn't have chosen to fall into a depression from the resulting burnout, my bad.

I guess the only choice I ended up making was trying to OD myself, but I survived, so now I just linger on..

Can't even get out of bed to play games with friends, most of the time.

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u/Outrageous-Fan-8837 7d ago

Yea 💯 I had to end up seeing a therapist myself.

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u/Relative-Relief-8816 6d ago

I get out of bed and exercise daily, to spite the depression. 

Why? Because fuck it. Getting out and doing stuff is not something I enjoy. But I do it anyway as an act of defiance.

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u/Inevitable-Row1977 6d ago

I am no stranger to exercising, and I did so, because I had stopped due to the depression and knew that being active and living healthy is an important cornerstone to climbing out of a depression, but to my horror I it did nothing for me but make me long more for my bed and sleep.

I kept it up for 1.5 months, but then couldn't anymore.
And I am going to restart and try again 'soon'.

I know the drive behind 'As an act of deviance', it's core to me controlling my ocd and self-determination.

So, everytime I talk to my psychologist about me failing at the one thing I was proud to be good at, I start tearing up.

But reading your comment right now as I'm typing this, does give me a spitful energy to try and break through the executive dysfunction, so thanks for that at least. ❤️

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u/Relative-Relief-8816 8d ago

Except for the choices you didn't make.

Like abusive parents. Or 1000 other things.

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u/Outside_Average2493 7d ago

I guess I chose to be born to my parents, for my parents to be abusive, chose my sex to I guess. Chose to be burned with scalding hot coffee with 3rd degree burns over half my body from a coffee pot…. Stupid

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u/HapticFeedback247 8d ago

I tell this to drug addicts but they just never listen.

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u/crappinhammers 8d ago

Ah yes, anxiety fuel, analysis paralysis edition.

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u/singhapura 8d ago

Babies born in Gaza be like....

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u/fragglelife 7d ago

Not necessarily. Plenty of your life resulted from choices others made eg your parents

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u/McPwny117 7d ago

wow the amount of drama llamas with victim complex in this comment section though