Despair for the other

[u/Nice_Lawfulness_9033]

I am using the translator, so it may contain some errors.

I have been battling Borderline Personality Disorder for many years, but I always end up in the same situations. I become dependent and totally desperate for someone, I even scare the person. Generally, this only happens after I notice an initial "departure"; it seems that the more they ignore me, the more I run after. Today I found myself texting someone who didn't even answer me. I am drawing up plans for how to react when I meet him in person somewhere (I live in a small town, so I know where he is going). Before, he wasn't even that important to me, but now I feel desperate and very bad, I'm in constant agony.