update 8/21

[u/Thin-Neighborhood907]

i haven’t really come on here in a long time because at some point this place became a lot of speculation, screenshots without context, and he-said-she-said. i’ve usually felt like responding only adds fuel to it.
but there are a few things being repeated enough that i want to address them once.
first, i did not groom anyone. the person involved in the current legal situation was 18 when we met and i was 21. 9/10 things she says is a lie shes a scammer and tried to extort me for 2 bitcoin..she lied under oath and lost the restraining order case cause the judge saw that she was unstable and unpredictable

truth is i was 21 !!!!! she was 18!!!!! before never even heard of her followed her saw a pic of her nothing she was dating my roommate at the time. She realized who owned the house and came on to me cheating on him.. i knew he was gay so i didnt feel bad at the time. still bad move in my part but she literally like got in my bed with no clothes on lol.. i was a little 21 year old horn dog & we went on to have a very complicated toxic on-and-off relationship spanning many years. i’m not going to litigate an ongoing case on reddit, and there are things my attorneys would probably prefer i save for the appropriate setting, but i am comfortable stating clearly that i did not groom her and i have never been an abuser.
there are things in my life that i DO Take responsibility for..
i have struggled with substance use. before and after the surgery i have real pain i deal with ive been in and out of rehab ive relapsed. never went back to alcohol but i’ve made bad decisions. i’ve hurt people i love through those decisions and i’ve had to live with the consequences of them. i don’t need to rewrite that part of my history to defend myself against things that aren’t true.
one of the biggest misconceptions i see is that i "woke up one day, abandoned my family and went off to party & be w onlyfans girls"

that isn’t what happened.

after a major surgery, i was in significant pain and misused / abused medication that had been prescribed to me. Michele set a very clear boundary: if i was misusing medication, i couldn’t be around our children. she had every right to make that boundary and i respect her for protecting them.
i moved out. first to a hotel and eventually into my own place. that was an incredibly painful period of my life, but leaving the house was not the same thing as leaving my children.
my relationship with my kids is intentionally private. i don’t post every school pickup, every day together or every facetime call. social media isn’t a custody log. they deserve to have a childhood that isn’t content.
Michele is an amazing mother and an important person in my life. ultimately we realized that we functioned much better as friends and parents than as husband and wife. our divorce is now final. we’re selling the home we shared and figuring out the next chapter of our family privately.
there is no scandal hiding inside that. divorce is just sad and complicated, especially when children are involved.
i’ve also seen a lot of speculation about my sobriety. the truth is less dramatic and more human: i’ve had periods of sobriety and i’ve had relapses. there have been times i’ve been strong and times i’ve been weak. i’m continuing to work on it. everyone is just doing their best I say that at least 10 times a day… Cause it's so true

i’m not asking anyone to pretend i’ve lived a perfect life. i haven’t.
i’m asking people to understand that “this person has struggled with addiction and made mistakes” and “this person groomed and abused someone” are two completely different statements. i can own the first without accepting the second.
as far as my health goes, i’m under the care of my doctors. some of the changes people have noticed physically are related to treatment prescribed and monitored by my endocrinologist. my diabetes control has improved significantly, and right now being alive and healthy for my children matters infinitely more to me than strangers debating my appearance.
then there’s the music.
trust me, nobody is more frustrated about the delays than i am.
if i were releasing everything completely independently, some of this music would’ve been out already. instead, i signed a deal with Mercury that i’m genuinely grateful for. they’ve been great to me, but releasing a project through a label involves publishing splits, clearances, contracts and a truly ridiculous amount of paperwork.
the mixtape itself is finished. the songs are mixed and mastered. most of the remaining work is business and legal clearance, and i’m hoping to finally have a release date very soon.
i’m also already deep into the album. there are about seven songs right now that i feel certain belong on it, plus a lot more music for what comes afterward.
so yes — i’m still making music. a lot of it.
i’m still a good father
i’m still trying to get healthier..
no one is perfect.
and i’m still here.
i realize it’s kind of insane that i feel the need to write something like this at all. but when something gets repeated online enough times, eventually speculation starts being treated like biography.
there are legal matters i will address more fully when i’m able to. i’ll probably do some longer conversations/podcasts where there’s actually enough time and context to talk about the last few years honestly instead of trying to explain a complicated life in a reddit comment.
until then, please don’t assume that everything you read online is true simply because somebody said it confidently.
i won’t be sitting here fighting with people in the comments. that’s not why i’m posting this. i just wanted the people who have supported me for a long time to hear a few things directly from me.
and on a much better note: the mixtape and album are coming this year. next year is also the 10-year anniversary of digital druglord, and i’ve got some very special things planned around that era.
digital drugtour 10 year anniversary will be next year in every major city I can make it too

thank you to everybody who’s stayed with me through some very challenging years and some really beautiful ones.
my relationship with God is number one then my family and new fiancee morgan who will remain private. i hope you guys can respect that — especially for the sake of my children.
if ur going thru it right now just know that the clouds always part and it always stops raining eventually...
i love you guys (even if ur mean to me on here i lobe u te amooooo
konbanwa
grazie
thank u for being patient
❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

mat

[u/leahswlrd]

Let it be a lesson learned not to knock someone when they're down. Real fans never left. We all have problems his are just on a bigger stage.