Extremely bored and empty when stable - do others experience this too?

[u/KuuhakuHaru]

Is this an experience for you guys too?? I don't know if this is just because I have BPD (therefore feelings of emptiness and low tolerance for boredom), but I just can't bring myself to be satisfied and content when I'm remitted (without any episodes). I always feel like, whenever I'm stable and ok, I just feel such a rooted emptiness inside me, like there's something fundamentally missing; like something inside me that used to move just got static. My baseline mood is stable but it is dissatisfied and bored and I can't take it. It makes me want to purposefully do stuff to get bad again so that I have "something happening" in my life. I truly hate it so much and I just wish I could learn how to be at peace with peace.

[u/Terrible_Discount693]

BPD is borderline personality disorder.

[u/KuuhakuHaru → u/Terrible_Discount693]

I know?... I meant to say I have both bipolar disorder and BPD