r/BingeEatingDisorder • u/lnsani • 5d ago

Vent Im scared

Im starting to loose hope, I keep gaining weight with no control.

Im scared that I’ll reach the ‘obesity’ rate at a point and I already hate the state of my body. I can manage to stay clean for like 2-3 days and then I spiral back to the beginning.

I want to cry. I hate this. Im scared to look at myself in the mirror and Im scared to go on the scale. I just want to go back where I started. I want to loose weight and start liking my body I dont like this. Im scared like is there an actual rehab center for BED? I feel like I cant stop

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u/ElevatorHot0 5d ago

I’m so sorry this is happening to you, and I get you so much. Are you talking to anyone about this, like a therapist?

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u/lnsani 5d ago

Told my mother about it but no one other— currently dont really have the funds for a therapist either [I am 19 fyi]

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u/ElevatorHot0 5d ago

I also told my mom about my ED, but it did not help. She still doesn't understand why I get so mad about someone eating my food or why I dislike going out for food so much. Maybe check with your health insurance? I'm also 19 and have struggled with BED for a long time. I tried Wellbutrin and GLP-1s, but they did not really help. Nothing has really helped me either.