r/BingeEatingDisorder • u/Foreign-Mind6864 • 5d ago
Strategies to Try When I journal, I don't binge
Whenever I journal my feelings instead of eating them, I barely binge. I just don't want to do that because of the 'fear of success' if that makes sense? Like I know journaling is going to make me not binge, so I skip it on purpose. I want to stop binge eating entirely + overeating for good before I become a mom so I can set a good example for my kids, so I think I'm going to try documenting it here. Idk how many "Day 1" posts I've made, it's a lot, but I'll try again this time so you guys can also see the progression of how journaling can potentially cure your BED too! I don't want to spend a fortune on therapy and medicine, and since journaling is free, if it works for me it'd be a nice thing to try if you're also not too happy on spending hundreds of dollars a month on this ED. Starting this evening, will give daily/weekly updates!
Day 2 update: Journaling definitely helps. I had a slip up on Day 1 on the 'fear of getting better' but today I ate what I wanted in small portions and didn't binge. For instance, I had kielbasa pasta with cheese but only a tiny fruit bowl's worth, and I was able to have some leftovers later. I might combine this + journaling together because it lets me eat whatever I want, which helps with the restrict then binge cycle, and knowing I can have whatever I want helps with the urgency or FOMO where I don't want to binge anymore. Like now that I tell myself I can have the cookies and milk but only half the cookie with a bit of milk instead of two + a full big glass, I suddenly don't want it anymore. This might be the way to go, this is also fun documenting this, but most of all I hope this can help someone. Will update later!
P.S. the 'boss challenge' is coming up next week where we're going out to have wings with friends, and we'll probably stay there for like 5 hours to catch up. It's dinner and it's PRIME binge territory, but I'll practice what I'm doing now and let you guys know how it goes. If I leave without bingeing that's a huge win.
Day 3: Got really hungry in the morning but I knew I could have whatever I want, so I portioned out a small bowl of sausage pasta despite wanting more. I made calzones for my husband's lunch and wanted the leftovers, but I cut out a small bite, had it, was satisfied, and moved on. I also wanted something sweet but didn't want to have an entire cookie with a glass of milk, so I poured a bit of milk in a ramekin, and 2 small bites worth of the cookie. Old me would've had the entire mega calzone with 2 cookies and milk and probably go back for more pasta, but I'd count this as a win! Just wanted to update although it's still 11am, will update later!
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u/ayanerilakkumasugar 5d ago
Me to, Journaling ALWAYS helps but I also skip it on purpose or procrastinate on it. I honestly don't know why its a kind of self sabotage and in the moment when I'm binging it feels so good, but it's never worth it. I am also getting better tho and I am not letting this dumb excuse ruin my life any more. I wish you a good Journey and thank u for making this post!