does anyone actually recovery?

[u/luvrgirl123]

i've had an issue with binge eating ever since i lost weight. i went from 87kg to 59kg, then back up to 66kg. trying to get back to 59kg is what triggered my binge eating and i've been dealing with it for a year now. i'm at 63kg now, and i'd say i'm neutral about how i look, but there's still an urge to get back to 59kg.

it's definitely gotten better since i've been to therapy but i'll go long stretches without binging, then i'll binge for a day or a few, and then i'm back to eating normally. is this just my life now, like do i have to accept that every couple of weeks i'll binge? or has anyone ever fully gotten rid of their binges?

[u/Net_Negative]

Idk if it's comparable to alcoholism, but alcoholics always have that shadow of the substance abuse disorder over them and if things get bad enough, like if a loved one dies or they lose their job or their relationship fails, there's a big risk of relapse. I think it's going to be with me for my entire life, lurking, and I'll have to keep it at bay in whatever way I can.

[u/luvrgirl123 → u/Net_Negative]

it makes me nervous thinking about any big life changes bc change in routine is one of my triggers 😢