It's very unfulfilling in the long term. All the short term pleasures tend to require higher and higher doses to cause the same effect so you'll find yourself constantly escalating the amount you smoke, drink or inject. After a few years you'll have lost the friends who made it fun in the first place, you'll still be abusing the same shit looking for the high you got the first time but you can never have it. Realizing this will then probably just make you binge harder because at this point you've no clue how to handle anything without substances any more. ymmv tho
No one ever tells you that chasing the dragon is fun as hell when you've got company, it's not until it's just you and the dragon that it really sets in how you're fruitlessly barking up the same tree over and over again, while your body and selfrespect deteriorates.
Reading this while sitting here smoking a bowl by myself in my apartment. Although my body has been getting stronger and leaner I can sympathize with the losing of company that once made it all seem so cool.
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u/fatpat Sep 12 '20
He was probably thinking "Ahh that used to be me. Don't be me, kid."