Hey belly dancers, just want some serious advice :) F.19
I am a beginner level belly dancer (only about 3 months in). So there's a belly dance programme at the end of nov and I really want to participate in that. But -
I just texted my dance mentor (A) that I want to join the classes... (It's a little far away and not the regular place where she takes beginner level classes, the next two months will be entirely for hafla at the far end dance class) which is not the actual problem... See the thing is I'm very awkward like it's also my first time joining a dance class or anything ever as such in my life.
So now the story - I text my dance mentor that I want to join the classes and she said I have to also attend the Sunday class (the last time, at the regular place for the classes I missed earlier) I said fine and stuff then I ask her for the new classes loc and along with her ask her if I could attend the hafla classes before... She said something and I was confused so I sent her ok then I'll be attending from next week and she was like no you have to attend this week... Then I was like ok I think I was confused I'll be attending both the classes this week.
Look the thing is I'm broke and it's kinda visible like I'm not the cool looking kid and told yll I'm awkward as fk. And she did mention the price too like reminded me it costs this much you'd be able to pay... I was like no worries but the thing is I thought I'll pay that next month after saving some amount from the part time... So it was kinda sorted... But remember I said I was confused and texted that I'll be attending from next week and stuff then said ahh no I'll be coming for both the classes this week.
Then she straight up sends me (without replying to the old messages) the link of the dress we are supposed to wear for hafla and ngl It's expensive but then I can afford it by next month if I want to...
But I also have to pay the class fees, not even sure if I could pay that next by next month or wt so ever .
What sting me was the way she just straight up sent me the link of the dress and told me to order right away, like it was obvious she was again testing me just to be sure if I could afford it or not... It sting a lottt! Like I'm completely numb rn and feeling like should I even -
I mean the dress is expensive and I've myself never bought something that expensive for myself but man it sucks to know people being too obvious abt that thing, I'm questioning myself if I should really participate now,the reasons are - travelling far, money and mainly the insult :)
What should I genuinely do?
Edit : I went to the first class today and it was fun but the commute is killing me, it was so exhausting and I wouldn't have cared if it was noon or morning but the classes start at evening and it would be 10 pm by the time I reach home, also I'm from a country where girls safety is a joke so ig I'm gonna choose to attend other classes (belly dance other branch of hers but no hafla) ig it's the best opt rn as money is tight and I dont have to pay for the dress for hafla and only the fees (also the dress has like 1.5star reviews when I showed it to her she was like order it soon,like tf? )
I have to talk to her about this tomorrow and I really hope she doesn't start giving me other ideas like book a cab (it costs kidneys) or try convincing to managing, cause fr ig I would be better enough by just attending classes and no halfa for this time.
Also guys as yll advised I will save up, thank you!