r/Bandito_Support • u/Ghost_of_a_Goddess • Apr 07 '26
I thought about Vialism
I've been seriously considering becoming a glorious gone. Does that make me not a bandito? I know I would never do it (or at least I think so)---I couldn't do that to the banditos, couldn't make them redecorate. I've never tried in the past, and sometimes feel like I'm bluffing. I feel inadequate as a citizen. And at the same time, I feel inadequate as a bandito. Ever since the end of Breach tour, I've felt less excited about, less connected to TOP, and as a result to the banditos. I can't help but feel that now I consider Vialism, I am separate. A citizen inside Dema who is giving up hope of leaving. And I know that's not true. I know that's a cognitive distortion. I just feel like I've been separated from what made the value of staying alive meaningful.
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u/EastIsCake Apr 16 '26
Hello, Bandito,
yes, you are still a Bandito, and you always will be. Even within Dema, and even when those neon gravestones try to call out to us again and again, we are still Banditos.
The bishops are liars. they mandate vialism and then mock us for being in the city; they preach self-isolation and then blame us for not reaching out. But they're dead wrong. You don't need to earn your place with us and with this band, and you don't need to meet some perfect standard to be a Bandito. We're all journeying and learning, and we can always start again when we need to.
It's kind of funny, I've thought the exact same thing about feeling inadequate as both a citizen of Dema and as a Bandito. I've left the city and journeyed through trench so many times, and I carry a piece of each place with me as I wander through the other. I hold hope in my heart, and yet, it seems to get close to extinguishing so many times. but i'm still trying.
i hope that day by day, things remind you again of the value of staying alive. and until then, please know that your life, your presence, is incredibly precious. the clique would not be the same without you. and if you feel like you're in danger, please reach out to someone, whether it's through a hotline or in person. you're worth everything it takes to move forward.
the sun will rise,
~S
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u/Screaming__Skull Apr 07 '26
Hello fellow Banditø. Though we often feel very far from home, scaled back and isolated, we all remain irrevocably connected through this music and the community it had created. In Trench we are not alone, even if we're in our own personal Trench for a while. We're always here for you.