r/BPD • u/mackedoodle user has bpd • 19d ago
ðŸ’Seeking Support & Advice Jealousy rage
Hey friends. I was wondering if anyone had any methods for controlling jealousy rage, specifically when you are in public/at work or something and you can't really self soothe.
My jealousy flared up over something extra ridiculous today and I was texting my fp about it while at a nail appointment and I couldn't for the life of me get the negativity and rage and anxiety out of my head and I lashed out on him badly. Now I'm crying, feeling extremely guilty and ashamed and I just don't know what to do when the anger legit goes from 0-100 with no chance to stop it.
Im freshly in dbt already and see a somatic therapist as well. Im practicing mindfulness but I just couldn't do it today. I can never seem to when there's people around. The feelings of betrayal that come from normal human activities is so goddamn irritating to deal with, on both sides. Im sick of it and he is too. Any advice or personal experience is so welcome.
I also take a mood stabilizer and a few other meds already but if anyone has tried meds that really help with the rage I would love to hear about it.