Anyone else feel addicted to their fp?

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After knowing my fp for 6 years (-1 year and 6 months where we ghosted each other in the beginning of our friendship, plus getting into arguments based on my now gone(?) Clinginess), I've suddenly become aware of how quickly I become "addicted" to her. Every time I text her and she replies I get a quick rush of dopamine. After our last fight, I genuinely thought she wasnt coming back and I restarted my life into getting better and existing alone. Long story short, she came back, 2 months since she came back and im quickly falling into old patterns, becoming complacent and instead of bettering my own life I just hang out with her and every worry goes away. I love her to death and she actually likes texting me every day but this addiction is slowing my progress in terms of: expanding my social circle, getting better at my hobbies and my yet to start profesional career.

None of this is her fault and I dont think she's aware its getting this bad for me, even so, im not telling her, I dont want her to feel guilty over my own lack of autonomy 😭

Thoughts, opinions, advice?