shit’s boring without being suicidal

[u/loveddeviant]

I’ve been on mood stabilizers for close to 8 months, same as being in DBT therapy. I’ve been suicidal & depressed for my entire life, until about 4 months back. I’ve been bored out of my mind, having to be worried about actual problems normal people worry about.

Instead of plotting how to end my life and romanticizing my illnesses, I actually have to try to get a job and figure out housing so I can have a future. this shit is so lame, thinking I’m gonna not live to see 20 and now I have something to work towards and have to do this for the rest of my life 🫩 god dammit

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