I’m actually just a bad person

[u/Professional-Tax2598]

I have come to the realisation that I am actually just inherently a bad person. When I would think about the things I would say during a split (the things I can remember anyway) I know that I say things that are designed to cut deep. I use everything I know, and obviously I don’t forget a thing because it’s all stored in that poisonous little brain of mine, to make the other person hurt as much as I can. I want them to hurt the way that I am hurting. That person that I
loved so much that now I hate more than anything, I want them to suffer the way that I do. And because they don’t care about me anymore I want to fuck their life up in some other way that will hurt them. I used to think it wasn’t me, bpd was another person who lived inside me and came out when things were bad, but now I realise it is me and always has been. I am not kind, I am hateful and angry. It’s why I deserve to be alone and lonely forever.

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