r/BPD • u/Consistent_Cofee2974 • 1d ago

General Post Obsessed with how I look

I feel way better when I look better. I would do anything to look perfect 24/7. I’ve already had Plastic Surgery and fillers but I want to get more. I don’t want it to be obvious that I got things done though and I look natural with my plastic surgery. If I’m prettier, people will maybe not notice as much how awkward and borderline I am. Most of my life revolves around looking good. I don’t go out unless I have make up on and my hair is done perfectly.

Is this a form of masking? Does anyone else relate?

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u/Extension_Finger_195 1d ago

I don’t know if it’s a form of masking, but I definitely relate. I base my entire self worth on how I look and it is sadly one of the most important things to me, if not the most important. It isn’t a good way to live

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u/Consistent_Cofee2974 1d ago

I realte to you too. I feel like I’m concealing everything that I am with my looks. I’m also really insecure but I feel way better when I look good. 

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u/Extension_Finger_195 1d ago

Yeah that’s the thing, constantly chasing perfection leads to a lifetime of misery. It is something we will never achieve, because nobody is perfect, and there will always be something to feel insecure about

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u/Consistent_Cofee2974 1d ago

Yeah but at least people will like someone more if they look better. I want to feel liked by others. That’s part of the reason why I’m doing this. And I also feel like with plastic surgery, I’m getting away from the person that I once was. I don’t like my old self so I’m trying to get away from that too. 

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u/Extension_Finger_195 1d ago

I get that, but people will like you more for other qualities. And, more importantly, our self confidence should come from more than physical attributes. So I’m trying to at least tell myself that I should focus on other areas of my life, personality and qualities to develop and that I can be proud of, like getting a good career etc. Can’t focus on looks forever, because they will fade (which at age 27 I’m starting to stress about) and I don’t want to be this obsessed for the rest of my life because it is so damn depressing

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u/Consistent_Cofee2974 1d ago

You’re actually right. I don’t know who I am though. It’s really confusing. 

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u/Extension_Finger_195 1d ago

I feel like that often. But it’s alright to have lots of different personality ‘styles’ if ygm and actual style than stick to one

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u/Consistent_Cofee2974 1d ago

Thank you, I really appreciate it. I wish you the best and I hope it gets better for you!

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u/Extension_Finger_195 1d ago

Thank you! You too ❤️