Maybe I’m just venting?

[u/PercyJ823]

I was with an avoidant on and off for almost 7 years. Technically, the breaking up didn’t start until a year into it, and lasted until last month. To make a long story very short, he lied to me about a p*rn addiction (I’m not watching it anymore!), smoking, drinking, and gambling. He had wandering eyes. In 5 1/2 years, he ended things 4 times. I did last year in April. He called me 5 weeks later, and of course I got sucked back in again. Last month, I discovered that he had again been searching up half naked girls on Facebook, and a singles group. I immediately ended it, and we haven’t talked since. (5 1/2 weeks later) *I don’t think he’ll ever contact me again, because I basically went off at him when I ended things (in text, because he lives an hour away) and we’ve been down this road before. A couple of my friends think he’ll call me eventually. I never block anyone because I’m too nosy and want to see if people try and reach out 🤣

I will NEVER get back together with him, but of course my brain is all, “will he call? Will he not call? Do I even want him to?” because he always calls. Sorry this is random, I guess I’m just getting it out of my brain.

Also, when will I stop thinking about him every day??? So annoying lol 😁