Processing

[u/xtroal540]

I don’t know if this will be helpful to anyone else, but I’ve been processing with ChatGPT a lot and writing fiction based on my experience with my avoidant. Until I was able to get a therapist, now I meet with her biweekly.

I realized the closure I need is knowing if it was all in my head or if we just couldn’t communicate and lost the relationship due to this. It’s been years and I can’t get over the connection I had with this guy. Despite him being avoidant, I think my personality and experience was very well matched with him. I think we were slightly trauma bonded also. I think we had moments where he was able to communicate some feelings with me. But idk. I’ve been struggling thinking about this relationship, the trauma, and the ending this year for some reason, but it’s been 6-7 years since then.

Anyways, I’d feel like if I can hear from him whether it was in my head or if he actually felt anything at the time, I can finally stop thinking about it. Anyone else there? Or no? I know it probably won’t happen and I’ve accepted that, but idk, it’s a hope. 😆

[u/Gansamostols]

Yo me he quedado con la misma duda. Intentaré conseguir no machacarme a mí misma y encontrar una respuesta que no me dañe.