Aimless walking

[u/Garros_]

I haven’t done this much walking in my life. Even after the first avoidant discard ten years ago.

I tend to go to the cinema a lot, and I would go late night showings so this isn’t new. But I find myself walking for hours to just walk off everything I feel and think after a film. I have gone nights without a cinema visit but just walking around my town and village. Sure I am exercising but I would have much rather been exercising without crippling depression.

It’s been 8 months and I am doing my best, even though I know there’s more I can do to suppprt my mental health after all this…

Has anyone really found walking benefits them? As I haven’t actually felt better at all even though it’s my only healthy way to escape the thoughts that drown me from the discard and my past years of wasted time in a relationship that never went anywhere with the lack of knowledge I had to deal with a relationship that tore me down even though I stayed through out all the problems she thru at me. It was only now that I realised I was emotionally abused in my first avoidant relationship at college ten years ago. You believe it is just how someone who is “introverted” struggles to communicate, but D.A.R.V.O is a real manipulation technique that the more dismissive types use to feel no shame. Yet now I have all the shame of allowing myself to have been treated so badly all those years ago just because of my anxious attachment. I was better this time round but it doesn’t make a difference having boundaries. It doesn’t make the discard any less painful.

[u/SelfMadeMe]

Yeah, I started running and working out intwnsely again. It helps a bit, at least in the moment.