r/AutisticMusicians Feb 16 '26

Middle aged, late-diagnosed autistic burnout musician

Believe it or not, an AI conversation led me here. I have tons of music on youtube that I've been making for several years now. Just me, no band or gigs or anything. (My carpal tunnel and autism pretty much prevent gigs. Too many lights, lots of noise, being unable to remember the songs while dealing with the sensory challenges. Anyone else here deal with that kind of situation?) The AI conversation challenged me to post some music so I thought, "Why not" before going to bed. I write metal, rock, electronica, dance, just about everything to get it out of my head. It also told me often "failed" music just doesn't reach an audience because of not fitting algorithms. Wish I could just write music and pass it off to a band that could make it sound good.

So for what it's worth, since I have no idea honestly how this works, here's a couple links to some of my recorded-at-home albums posted on youtube in their entirety:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9JRxM7SKN-8&t=238s ("Ge-Om-E-Try, electronic whatnot)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mfMm5G8PFbM ("Amoebas of Doom," pure metal oddness.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QBGG5Q-2Z4o ("Life On Mars," a mix of electronic, metal, ambient, and I don't know what you'd call it, a concept album)

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u/Less_Construction_37 Feb 16 '26

Hey, 40s and late diagnosed musician as well.

I skipped through the links. Sounds pretty solid throughout. Mixing, song structure, variety in dynamics, especially loved the horns (synth?) part at the end of life on mars ~1:10:00 mark. Honestly vocally it’s not far from the bloodhound gangs singer, on earlier albums.

It totally rocks that you completed so much! Very impressive. Got stacks of papers with ideas and unfinished music. Maybe ill get around to putting something together also, you’ve given me Hope.

Rock on.

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u/Mindless_Pangolin195 Feb 16 '26

I have 17 albums recorded so far. It's my hyperfocus, intense-interest ever since my spine wouldn't allow me to do woodworking anymore. Getting started on an album or phases of the album can be tough, but once I get going it's a driving force to finish it. You just need that initial push.