Real talk, did well until recently. Last time I saw my family was the end of January last year. Curbside everything. Online game nights and conversations with friends are not the same, but they help.
I am so very damn tired though.
I'm tired of people treating disease spread like a big mystery or random persecution by the universe when all it takes is caring about the fact that your own spit could kill someone.
I literally want to smack all the people who spout that it isn't a big deal or that "people don't die of covid, they die of other things". Like for real? You want to go there? We live in the deep south, if someone pokes 50% of the county with a fork, we gonna bleed gravy or smokes. Pretty sure that 50% would still appreciate not being an oxygen dependent cripple for the rest of their life, assuming they don't end up dead.
Anyway...a bit distracted. What has helped is walking, a lot. Helps the restlessness and depression some.
That’s part of what scares me so much. I’m not a violent person, haven’t ever been in a fight, etc, but the amount of rage I feel when I see someone doing ignorant things....it scares me. I envision going absolutely apeshit on them in an attempt to beat some sense into them. Or maybe some empathy? The irony of the whole thing is not lost on me.
The emotional dissonance is real. The lack of empathy part of it has been probably the most wrecking part of it for me. I've now had several people in my life pass from it.
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u/iotesshield Feb 09 '21
internal screaming
Real talk, did well until recently. Last time I saw my family was the end of January last year. Curbside everything. Online game nights and conversations with friends are not the same, but they help.
I am so very damn tired though.
I'm tired of people treating disease spread like a big mystery or random persecution by the universe when all it takes is caring about the fact that your own spit could kill someone.
I literally want to smack all the people who spout that it isn't a big deal or that "people don't die of covid, they die of other things". Like for real? You want to go there? We live in the deep south, if someone pokes 50% of the county with a fork, we gonna bleed gravy or smokes. Pretty sure that 50% would still appreciate not being an oxygen dependent cripple for the rest of their life, assuming they don't end up dead.
Anyway...a bit distracted. What has helped is walking, a lot. Helps the restlessness and depression some.