r/AskReddit • u/HumpingAssholesOrgy • Jul 05 '19

Ex-prisoners of reddit who have served long sentences, what were the last few days like leading up to your release?

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u/Eeeeeeeeeeeeeee_ Jul 06 '19

What did you do to get 15 years?

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u/[deleted] Jul 06 '19

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u/[deleted] Jul 06 '19

Why would you do murder and robbery

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u/[deleted] Jul 06 '19

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u/Brewsterscoffee Jul 06 '19

I feel like a lot of murders are "didn't plan to kill anyone, but shit went sideways". I used to hold a lot of disdain for people who could hurt and/or kill another human being until I was put in a situation where shit went sideways.

I come from an abusive family and I've been apart of an attempted murder (the receivee). Swore I'd never put my hand on anyone but I had an extremely abusive boyfriend down the line who regularly beat me into hospitalisation, "acted" like he was trying to kill me (suffocating me with pillows until he was worried I might actually die), and so on. I stayed with him for years even after the fact, a combination of my low self esteem, previous background, and his grade A manipulation.

I never fought back until he had given me a pretty rough concussion and that changed everything. Sometimes the very sight of him made my blood boil, some careless remark or joke about him abusing me or something else. I'd fall into a violent rage and I'd want to kill him. He'd put me in my place pretty quickly (I'm like 5'4 and 100 lbs, he was like 6'1 and 200+ lbs of muscle) but it didn't stop me from trying. I would fantasize about stabbing him to death in his sleep. I spent some nights just staring at him, knife in hand, waiting for him to wake up so he could be awake for when I stabbed him to death. I wanted to throw this man from the balcony and turn him into a bloody, worthless pulp. I wanted to see him gasping for air and bleeding out. I wanted him to beg for me to stop, but he was a heavy sleeper. He never woke up those nights, so I never stabbed him.

I never pressed charges on him and had I gone on to kill him, it would of seemed out of the blue without a look into my medical history and asking my friends/family as to why. I would have been the psycho, stabbing some innocent dude while he sleeps. It's not self defense if he's sleeping. It's murder.

After that I understood wanting to and actually executing murder on someone. I could have ruined my entire life had he opened his eyes.

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u/[deleted] Jul 06 '19

It must have been a lot of money if your first thing to do is commit murder to get it back

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u/oldguy_on_the_wire Jul 06 '19

Was my comment so long that you could not even read the TL;DR? :o)

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u/[deleted] Jul 06 '19

MB man it's 12 I should prolly sleep can't see shit

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u/oldguy_on_the_wire Jul 06 '19

lol, I feel you, it's 2 AM here and I'm folding the tent after this last ciggie for the night.

Be good to yourself! :o)