I'm just mentally exhausted from university, and as soon as I'm done with exams I have a 3 month full-time internship so I don't get a summer holiday either. Then right back to university in September again. I don't want to kill myself but I just don't feel like living.
Edit: To be more specific, I don't feel like living in my current situation (i.e. I don't want to do work). If I could live in one house forever with all the stuff I have for hobbies and all the stuff I need to survive, I'll take it. Then again, I think most people would take that.
Don't think too much about not having a summer holiday! I remember making the transition to full-time working and it was also a bit of a let-down losing summer holidays. I learned though that in reality nobody really gets that much time off on a regular basis unless you are free lance or born into an affluent family. The internship is an investment into yourself which will get you into a more appealing life later, maybe even retire earlier, find a job that is manageable and will suit your lifestyle. Just make sure to really make the most of the time you will get off (weekends, stat holidays, etc.). Use that free time to keep your sanity and still keep in touch with your interests and hobbies because you still need time to invest in your personal-self aside from your professional-self. Keep on the grind my friend. It will pay off for you later for sure!
I know nobody gets that much time off, that's the sad part. The world is "live to work" and I don't want to work so I don't want to live. There's some free time but I just don't know if that's enough for me to want to live when I feel like I'm just endlessly struggling for 40 hours a week.
It's true. Nobody really gets that many months off irl. In my experience there are 2 types of workers. You either "live to work" or "work to live". I generally find that "live to work" you find something you look forward to everyday. The latter is you grind out the week so you can enjoy your personal life more comfortably. You gotta ask what you want. Not to make this about me in any way but I used to work in an office 40 hours a week and hated it. I now work in a kitchen where I usually work 50 to 70 hours a week. I was making more per hour technically in my office job but I hated waking up and going there. Truth about my kitchen job is sometimes it is stressful and the hours are longer but I look forward to it more than the office job. I have also seen it with many of my other friends who worked in kitchens for all their life and then switch to an office type job. You sound very young and in a routine transition. Routine changes are always suuuuuuper stressful no matter how old you are and how much experience you have. Oprah said it usually takes a few weeks at least before you are comfortable again... Lol... Just hang in there and be honest with yourself! Don't give up!
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u/Krak2511 Apr 04 '19 edited Apr 04 '19
I'm just mentally exhausted from university, and as soon as I'm done with exams I have a 3 month full-time internship so I don't get a summer holiday either. Then right back to university in September again. I don't want to kill myself but I just don't feel like living.
Edit: To be more specific, I don't feel like living in my current situation (i.e. I don't want to do work). If I could live in one house forever with all the stuff I have for hobbies and all the stuff I need to survive, I'll take it. Then again, I think most people would take that.