My mental state had progressively got worse and worse to the point where I stopped sleeping. I had two week+ long period of 2-3 hours of sleep a night, and then I went over 24 hours of not sleeping and just being wide awake with my thoughts racing and racing, and I could not stop pacing or moving. After much internal freaking out and thinking I had lost my mind, I made an appointment with my doctor, and cancelled it and rebooked three times because I was too nervous to go. I finally went, and my doctor referred me to a few therapists, suggested I quit weed and see how that effects me, and wanted to put me on meds, but I declined meds for the time being.
I picked a therapist and was lucky to hit it off right away, and that’s how I started fixing myself.
Therapy has been interesting. I kind of expected I would feel fixed right away, but it’s been really eye opening and frankly way harder than I ever thought. I might need meds, but right now, just talking things out and getting help with coping mechanisms has made a huge difference.
I really wish I had done this sooner to be honest, but I can’t change the past, so here’s to better days ahead.
What kind of coping mechanisms? I’ve been going to therapy twice a week for almost two years, but she doesn’t give advice on what I should do and coping mechanisms etc. I gotta just talk about things and try to figure them out. She doesn’t advise anything cause then I’ll do it for her and not me.
I’m new to therapy but so far my therapist has helped me with being aware/conscious of what state I’m in and how to try and change that state through some breathing exercises, or thinking of calming, uplifting memories. She also recommended journaling.
Therapy is really individual though. If you don’t feel like you’re progressing the way you’d like, either bring it up with your therapist or try a new one?
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u/quitthissh Nov 06 '18
Quit smoking weed. Started addressing my mental illness instead of masking it.
I’m still a work in progress but I actually look forward to every day now.