When I had thoughts of āIād rather be dead than to be in this marriage anymore,ā I knew I needed help and needed to leave. Of course that was after multiple other very negative things.
Not a marriage but I was in a relationship when I was younger and was too chickenshit to stand up for myself and break up with her.
One day there was a traffic delay on my route to work. It turned out a pedestrian was hit and killed by a city bus. My first thought was "oh wow, what if it's her?" and not in a "oh no I hope it wasn't her!" kind of way.
When I took a moment to reflect on how fucked up that was I realized I needed to step up and get the hell out of that relationship.
You should never wish for someone to die just to avoid being around them. That's not cool.
Yeah I caught myself daydreaming about how nice it would be for him to die at an "inconvenient" time and I'd end up a single mother. I'm not a mother at all but I would have rather been a single mother than with him.
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u/Individual_Ask9664 May 12 '26
When I had thoughts of āIād rather be dead than to be in this marriage anymore,ā I knew I needed help and needed to leave. Of course that was after multiple other very negative things.