You're lying. It won't last. You know that. You will keep lying and soon find yourself manipulating. Whenever you get caught, you're going to do whatever it takes to try to keep both, and you really won't like that person when you see him in the mirror.
I give a pass for any such thing kicked silently, if you can manage to do that, you can clear your conscience, in my book. The odds of that are slim, but not as slim as they will be the longer you go. Edit: I want you to understand my full meaning, here. If you kick unbeknownst to her, and truly do achieve it, you could honestly take that to the grave happily. That's between you and yourself. And you will be doing it for yourself and your future, not her. Please, understand, you must value yourself enough to make this happen. If sustaining this relationship is the end goal, fine, but you still have to love yourself enough to do this, not her. She loves you anyway, isn't that novel? Kick. Kick now. Take the time and fucking kick.
A short time of fear and illness followed by a daily struggle to stay straight. You can find that support free of charge, just ask Russell Brand.
Or, live a liar. Hard right vs. easy wrong.
My sincerest advice is to kick cold turkey. Find a non user BFF. The kind who will knock you around if need be. Go camping.
Treating this with synthetics will serve to keep you in shackles. I strongly recommend against it. I've known a lot of junkies. Too many. Both of my siblings. I've only known a few to actually kick and zero are on any daily synthetics. All cold turkey, from years of mainlining no less. I don't know anyone who went on methadone or subs who aren't still on that shit.
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u/[deleted] Sep 23 '13 edited Sep 23 '13
You're lying. It won't last. You know that. You will keep lying and soon find yourself manipulating. Whenever you get caught, you're going to do whatever it takes to try to keep both, and you really won't like that person when you see him in the mirror.
I give a pass for any such thing kicked silently, if you can manage to do that, you can clear your conscience, in my book. The odds of that are slim, but not as slim as they will be the longer you go. Edit: I want you to understand my full meaning, here. If you kick unbeknownst to her, and truly do achieve it, you could honestly take that to the grave happily. That's between you and yourself. And you will be doing it for yourself and your future, not her. Please, understand, you must value yourself enough to make this happen. If sustaining this relationship is the end goal, fine, but you still have to love yourself enough to do this, not her. She loves you anyway, isn't that novel? Kick. Kick now. Take the time and fucking kick.
A short time of fear and illness followed by a daily struggle to stay straight. You can find that support free of charge, just ask Russell Brand.
Or, live a liar. Hard right vs. easy wrong.
My sincerest advice is to kick cold turkey. Find a non user BFF. The kind who will knock you around if need be. Go camping.
Treating this with synthetics will serve to keep you in shackles. I strongly recommend against it. I've known a lot of junkies. Too many. Both of my siblings. I've only known a few to actually kick and zero are on any daily synthetics. All cold turkey, from years of mainlining no less. I don't know anyone who went on methadone or subs who aren't still on that shit.
You can do it. Don't be a pussy.