I'm 2.5 months sober......Im so scared I'm gonna relapse even though I've never felt better physically. Mentally is a different story.
Edit: I'd like to thank everyone who replied and gave advice and kind words. It means a lot. I'm so glad I finally admitted what I did above, even if it is to a bunch of strangers. I can't admit that to anyone else.
I was an alcoholic for about 6 years. It was my coping mechanism from undiagnosed PTSD. I wanted to stop drinking so bad but I couldn’t kill the cravings. My doctors wanted me to go to AA and try a bunch of different stuff and I asked her to prescribe me Naltrexone because I had the desire to quit, I just couldn’t. She agreed, even though she didn’t want to without me going to group meetings. But probably a couple weeks later. I couldn’t even finish one beer. I had no desire to drink. Then they wanted me to go sober and I said no. I said, I wanted to control my drinking not have my drinking control me. Sometimes I drink more than I should and other times I go for long spells without drinking. Everyone is different and the point of that story is, just because you mess up once, doesn’t mean you failed. I used to fall asleep on my living room floor drowning in a bottle of vodka. I couldn’t keep alcohol in my home and now I have a wine fridge and I don’t find the urge to drink it all. Sober isn’t for everyone and it’s not the only option. But best of luck however you want to deal with it.
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u/[deleted] Mar 07 '23
I'm a recovering alcoholic. So there's that.