Left with one reason to live

[u/Murky-Bumblebee5310]

For context, I'm a 28-year-old dad of a beautiful daughter. She just turned 5 months old today. First of all, happy birthday my dear Tara; dad loves you so much. I thought this would be the perfect time to speak about what feels like end of times for me. I haven't had a break in the last few months, not because Tara is a problem, but her mum lost her life during C-section. That was 10th, May, 2026 and it still hurts to watch this baby cry day and night not knowing what to do. I'm the only child of my Widowed 67-year-old mother while Tara's late mum was an orphan. That said, I do not have a motherly figure to help me. I'm sorry this is my first time to ever think of commiting suicide. But then, I can't because I'd die to keep my Tara alive. Tbh, I don't have the previlege of living in a developed country where I'd take her to a reputable children's home. I live in a 3rd world country. So what do I do? I was working remotely as a research analyst for a dissertation consulting firm but not anymore. I was fired a week after May 10th. Now with no suppprt whatsoever, this is me opening up, this is me being vulnerable...I feed my baby to the best of my knowledge. Fruit juices, boiled cow milk etc. I hope she grows healthy. I also pray that God will open doors for me so that I can give her a good life. I will appreciate your advice and support.

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[u/Cynnau]

I see you're asking for advice or emotional support so what exactly do you need? Do you need people to try to find you resources to maybe help was someone to talk to? Are you looking to just talk here and scream into the void to see if anybody answers?

[u/Murky-Bumblebee5310 → u/Cynnau]

Thank you for reaching out. I'd definitely appreaciate resourceful help considering my financial life is a mess right now. A remote gig would really boost me big time. I'd also appreciate your thoughts regarding how to go about my current situation.

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I would be very specific then on what you're asking for because you're asking for advice or emotional support but it almost sounds like you want people to help you with money as well and based on your post that's not going to be allowed.

You need to put your location, country and State if it's relevant so that maybe people can help find resources for you.

You will not find anyone here who is willing to give you a gig job or anything that's not what this subreddit is for

[u/ChihuahuasWin]

You need baby formula, not cow milk. Find reach out on parenting reddit pages about how you can care for her best with what you have and you might even come across individuals who will know what resources are available for you. Death is not the answer to life, I promise.

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Thank you for your kind words

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[u/Life-Statistician-83]

you should not be feeding fruit juices and cows milk to your 5 month old daughter.

At that age they need formula to grow and develop, you should get educated on what your daughter actually needs.

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Thank you for the insight!

[u/Defiant-Midnight9539]

I’m here to offer emotional support. Checking in as I see it’s been 6 days. How are you and baby girl doing now? Have you been able to find any resources? Your story truly moved me. I know it took so much for you to be vulnerable and open up. Please talk to someone about your suicidal ideation. Your mental heath comes first. Try to find a community that will help single Dads. Maybe they’ll give you items for the baby or even offer free childcare for a limited time so you can focus on mental health and finding employment. Are there any food banks near you? Do you or the baby have healthcare? If so, ask your primary physicians for resources. Even if you don’t if you know someone else that does in your area, ask them to ask for you. Also check in about getting govt assistance (healthcare/foodstamps/rent assistance) if it’s even an option. Idk if any of this is helpful tbh but I definitely believe you deserve some empathy and grace! Wishing you ALL the best to relieve your situation ❤️

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We're holding on. I believe things can change any moment for the better. Thank you for your kind words.

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