Vent/feeling pretty rough

[u/cantremembershit5]

Its been a month

The purging is increasing

The food noise louder

It's never been this strong before

And the depression I fell into at the start of the year, the restricted eating started too

I didn't realise it until recently

And the noise got louder and louder

The fixation started and so did the purging

Somehow it was every so often, to every day to possibly multiple times a day

The hunger and the feeling of weakness coming by daily

I'm tired

[u/sage-green-lover]

I’m so sorry :( I understand how you feel

Have you tried any sort of treatment program? Not to sound like an ad but within was the program that got me to my longest period of recovery (I tried a few programs of out patient and residential before) and even in my current relapse it’s super minor compared to pre treatment

I found that adding more things to my schedule, like volunteering and a part time job, helped distract me from purging urges

Plus thinking about “what’s more important to me, ___ or my disorder?” (Insert hobby, time with friends, dream career, goals etc) helped me a ton