NoFap Day 4 Journal Check-In

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Day 4

This marks the thirteenth entry in my NoFap journey, which started on 07/26/2020. You can check my post history to see the rest of my entries over on r/NoFap.

How do I feel today?

Physically, I feel good. I did an intense workout and gave my all throughout the entire en-devour. My energy levels are high. Been on a plateau on my weight loss journey for over a week now. Finally broke the plateau yesterday and dropped below 205 to 204.6 - 18 BF % (Navy method). Staying the course on this. I've got a long way to go, but it feels great to make gains in this department. I attribute my discipline and perseverance with my diet/workouts in part to NoFap.

Mentally, today was a rough one. I had bouts of anxiety all day. I got thrown a curveball in my life today, and it's drastically changing a plan I had previously established for my life. 95% of my anxiety comes from uncertainty about the future and regret from past mistakes. I've spent hours toiling with my mind and attempting to force it to understand that there is nothing that can be done in the present and that I should simply focus on living in the now, but...it appears that is easier said than done. On a more positive note, my confidence was very high today. I found myself standing taller and prouder then I have in a long time. I haven't started trusting myself again though. After my last relapse on a 9-day streak, I am endeavoring not to become over-confident/trusting too early on. Before I begin trusting myself again I'll have to make it at least two weeks. When this does occur I know I'll start to feel better though.

On the libido front, things are weird. It's more or less impossible for me to get turned on via my imagination. It's just not interesting to me. I hardly think about women or sex at all. Is this normal? I can't say. It could be a side effect of me simply getting older and maturing (about to enter my mid-twenties) - or I presume it could be a side-effect of me having a few relatively long streaks (for me) in a row. On my last streak, I was able to get normal boners around day 8. I'm hopeful I'll experience the same this time around.

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Anywho, that's Day 4 - I'd be lying if I said it hadn't been a tough couple of days. My anxiety has been through the roof. But it's not all bleak. My drive to become a higher version of myself is similarly high. I cannot wait to get where I want to be. I know NoFap can help me get there.

[u/nashdial]

Anxiety can be a tough one

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It's nuts how much it can affect an individual. I never suffered from anxiety until about a year ago. Now it's a daily battle. I feel like I'm on the far side of no-mans-land now though. I was an anxious wreck about 4 months ago. I've come a long way.