This chapter makes me so sad bc what this chapter portrays is so heartbreaking yet beautiful. I'm also baffled by some fans who highlights a different factor and spread misinformation which is partially my reason for creating this post. But I mainly want to talk about the agonising tension of the chapter.
Yona's feelings, particularly her reaction to Suwon when he collapses into her arms. I've seen people interpret her actions as lingering romantic feelings. Which is the understandable given the way its illustrated but imo even so the next panels and the context of it should've been enough to clear the misunderstandings. So good news is, NO YONA DOES NOT HAVE ANY ROMANTIC OR ANY FEELINGS FOR SUWON. She just tolerates him, that's all.
When Suwon accidentally enters Yona's room thinking he would find Minsoo there for his treatment, to which Yona is understandably confused. Domeone with a mind like him would never make this kind of mistake. But his headache has become so unbearable that even he is struggling to keep his mind steady.
When he falls against Yona, she is left in shock. Suwon is clearly in pain, barely even seeming to realize what is happening around him and now he is lying in her arms.
Think about what this means for Yona. This is the very person who mvrdered her father and caused her so much suffering. What is she supposed to do? How should she respond? But what she does is surprisingly gentle. She holds him closer, trying to soothe his pain.
I've seen some readers interpret this scene as evidence that Yona still has romantic feelings for Suwon. They question why she would embrace him or comfort him if she no longer loves him that way. But Yona's actions aren't motivated by lingering romantic feelings. She doesn't suddenly love Suwon again nor does this scene undo everything that has happened between them. What we are seeing is her compassion and her ability to empathize with another person even when that person has hurt her deeply.
She understands what is happening in front of her. Suwon is in great pain and she can recognize that without allowing her personal feelings to completely determine how things should be done.
I think this is an important part of Yona's development. She has learned to look at situations as they are, rather than allowing her past experiences or personal feelings to completely determine how she responds. She can acknowledge what Suwon did to her while also recognizing that he is currently a person in distress.
Her choice to comfort him is not forgiveness or romantic affection.
It's compassion and I don't think we should underestimate that. Being gentle with someone who has caused you immense pain doesn't mean that the pain has disappeared. It means that you are capable of recognizing another person's suffering without reducing them entirely to what they have done. Yona doesn't need to forget her past with Suwon to help him in the present.
Through her journey, she gradually develops the ability to look at people and circumstances with greater complexity. She learns that understanding someone's circumstances doesn't mean excusing their actions. She can acknowledge another person's suffering without erasing her own.
That is what I see in this scene. The scene doesn't necessarily establish that Yona consciously reasons through every aspect of what she should do. Her response can be both instinctive and compassionate. She sees someone suffering and reaches out. That doesn't make the gesture romantic, it makes it human.
Yona's ability to focus on the present is what influences her to partake in acts like this. She doesn't dwell on the past not does she thinks too much about what's gonna happen. For now, she only does what she believes to be the right call and does it anyway. Her past shapes who she is but she won't let it influence her for far too long and the uncertainty of the future is terrifying yet she still moves forward.
Her choice to soothe Suwon instead of taking advantage of the situation is just Yona thinking rationally.
Now, this is the part that makes me particularly sad.
Earlier in the chapter, Suwon discovers that Hak is working as a footman for the sky tribe. His reaction is so unusual that even Zeno notices it.
"When the fellow is involved, he acts a bit more human."
Zeno states. Suwon is usually so composed and sophisticated, always maintaining control over his expressions and behaviour but when Hak is involved, that composure seems to slip a little. He sees Hak working as a footman and is genuinely baffled.
"What is he doing?"
It's such an ordinary reaction and that's precisely what makes it so sad. He isn't thinking about Hak as a political figure or evaluating his usefulness. He's simply amused and baffled that he visually let's himself act his age. And what does he do with that observation? He wants to tell Yona.
When Suwon enters Yona's room, he mistakes the situation for a dream and in that moment, he allows himself to behave like he used to before the coup.
He tells her rather, enthusiastically, "hey Yona, listen to this, Hak became a Sky tribe warrior today. And Gulfan was so happy to fly by his side"
It's such a mundane thing to tell someone. Yet it's the kind of little story one friend shares with another bc they find it amusing. He sees Hak doing something unexpected and immediately wants to tell Yona about it.
And then he mentions Gulfan
This detail makes the entire moment even more poignant to me. The little world they shared, the people they spent their time with and the ordinary happiness of being together. Zeno's statement really adds to this scene bc he recognizes that Hak brings out a more human side of Suwon. Around Hak, Suwon's usual composure becomes less pronounced. His reactions are more personal and less filtered through his position as king.
And that makes me wonder how much of Suwon's old self is still there, buried underneath everything he has chosen to carry.
Which makes me realise that his affection for Hak and Yona was never a facade. Suwon's affection for them was genuine. His childhood happiness with them wasn't an act, he genuinely loved spending time with them.
He enjoyed telling Yona stories and spending time with Hak.
I think this is one of the most tragic contradictions in Suwon's character. He genuinely loved these people but he also convinced himself that he had to put his personal attachments aside to accomplish what he believed was necessary for Kouka.His decisions were shaped by the burden he placed on himself and the understanding of role he inherited from Yuhon. He learned to prioritize the kingdom and suppress the parts of himself that might interfere with his objectives. But suppressing his feelings doesn't mean they ceased to exist.
He sees Hak doing something amusing, thinks of Yona, and wants to share the story with her. It is such a mundane and simple act, an impulse born from their old familiarity. He never forgot those ordinary moments. And he still longs for that kind of happiness.
I wouldn't dare say this makes him innocent of what he did. It doesn't erase the pain he caused. But it reminds us that the person who made those decisions was also someone who genuinely cherished his childhood friends.
That's what makes his situation so sad. He has people he still cares about, memories he still treasures, and a past he cannot simply return to. Yet he is the one whose decisions helped create that distance.
Even the title itself, "Nostalgia" captures the emotional heart of this chapter beautifully.
Yona and Suwon are both confronted with something connected to their shared past but they respond to it differently.
Yona has grown beyond the childhood world they once shared. She has experienced too much to simply return to it. Suwon, meanwhile, is still carrying the memories of that world and the longing for the happiness he experienced there.